Oh my goodness, it feels so good to say that. I just opened up this blog for the first time in two years, and oh what a ride it has been. I got so fat! Seriously, my heaviest recorded weight was 235.2 in November 2015.
235.2! What.The.Fudge.
That is what I am recording as my starting weight for the day I officially told my fat to fuck off! I am so dead serious. I kicked it in gear and I've been kicking my own fat ass for the last 3 1/2 months. As of this morning I'm at 205. Which kind of pisses me off actually, because last Friday I was at 202. Obviously I know that I didn't gain 3 pounds in 4 days, but it still pisses me off when I retain water/poop/whatever the heck else you retain and makes you want to throw your scale out the window.
I'm so close to onederland, I just want it to get here! (I'm talking about the 202 number, not the piece of crap 205 number that keeps showing up on my scale).
So for me, the big change was that I just got over being fat. I hated feeling like crap, hating my body. Basically everything. I just decided I was done. I've been kind of doing MWLC again, but not really. I go there because I honestly love their protein shakes. They are awesome; expensive but awesome. I keep on trying to find something not as expensive and so far it just doesn't exist. So I figure that the price of the expensive shakes is way better than the price of being fat.
So I went to MWLC and they did my blood work. Here's an eye opener if being fat wasn't enough....I came back elevated fasting blood sugar, low good cholesterol and high uric acid. So basically, I'm pre-diabetic, at risk for heart disease, and at risk for gout. Nice! And I'm only 44. What.the.hell? So I guess it's either time to get busy living or get busy dying, right? Since I have a 6 year old and a 3 year old that depend on me, I guess it's time to get busy living.
I was prescribed metformin last year when I went for my annual physical. I don't have a regular family physician so my gyno did it. Well, the nurse practitioner did after she lectured me about not having a doctor. (I've still gotta do that). Anyway, she rx'ed it to me, so I finally decided to start taking them. I'm going to say it was November 9 because I don't remember the day, but since that's "my day" and I'm sure it was pretty close to that, I'm going with it.
Also on November 9, I gave up the wine. I'm no longer a wino. (it feels REALLY good to say that). I also gave up my daily diet coke (only drank one of those a day). And I started logging everything on MFP. I log everyday and I'm currently on a 110 day streak! I'm on 1200 calories per day.
At first the weight literally flew off of me. I'm so serious, I lost 10 pounds like it was nobody's business. I'm currently down 33.2 pounds (if I use the 202 number). I feel awesome about this, but I want more! I've kind of plateaued for the last few weeks because I started hitting the wine on the weekend again. It really sucks and I've got to stop doing this. I actually don't even like drinking wine anymore, it's just my weekend habit. I hate how tired I am the next day after I drink it. I think I'm kind of over it and I'll be giving it up again.
I was trying to find something that had all of my weigh-ins, but I can only find the weekly weigh ins from my latest challenge that started on 12/12/15. These weigh ins are on Tuesdays and you will see that I've weighed in at 205 for the last 4 weeks. The thing that stinks is that I get down to as low as 202 by the end of the week. So it's obvious that my weekend habits are affecting my overall weight loss.
Beginning Weight: 235.2 (11/9/15)
Starting Challenge Weight: 218.2 (12/12/15)
12/12/15: 218.2
12/22/15: 216.2
12/29/15: 213.8
1/7/16: 211.8
1/12:16: 212
1/19/16: 210.4
1/26/16: 208.6
2/2/16: 205
2/9/16: 205
2/15/16: 205
2/22/16: 205
Current Goal: 199
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Aaah, what a week!
I hate time change days, they totally screw up my kids.
So, first off, I got weighed in on Wednesday before my daughter's surgery. I was still at 223. So, based on the fact that I was basically off my diet for a whole week while I was in Canada, that's pretty good.
I ended up going for a work out on Tuesday night since I wasn't working on Wednesday. It was great workout, but I was totally jacked up and ended up being up until almost 2:00 am, which doesn't work great when your kiddos get up at 6:00 regardless...
I didn't work out Wednesday-Friday, which I was a little bummed about. I planned to, but it just didn't work out. I did go on Saturday and did legs and again today and did chest and arms. Along with cardio both day, of course, since I really need to get rid of this fat.
I still feel like I'm the fattest person at the gym. It's funny because people will give me these encouraging smiles, like "oh, look at the fat lady working out, keep it up." It makes me want to laugh because I'm not used to be so in shape and would spend hours at the gym.
I'm still debating on the Fitness Builder app. I really like, but I find that as I get more comfortable with the equipment, I'm putting more variety into the workout than what the app workout has and I can't figure out a way to add to a canned workout.
So, first off, I got weighed in on Wednesday before my daughter's surgery. I was still at 223. So, based on the fact that I was basically off my diet for a whole week while I was in Canada, that's pretty good.
I ended up going for a work out on Tuesday night since I wasn't working on Wednesday. It was great workout, but I was totally jacked up and ended up being up until almost 2:00 am, which doesn't work great when your kiddos get up at 6:00 regardless...
I didn't work out Wednesday-Friday, which I was a little bummed about. I planned to, but it just didn't work out. I did go on Saturday and did legs and again today and did chest and arms. Along with cardio both day, of course, since I really need to get rid of this fat.
I still feel like I'm the fattest person at the gym. It's funny because people will give me these encouraging smiles, like "oh, look at the fat lady working out, keep it up." It makes me want to laugh because I'm not used to be so in shape and would spend hours at the gym.
I'm still debating on the Fitness Builder app. I really like, but I find that as I get more comfortable with the equipment, I'm putting more variety into the workout than what the app workout has and I can't figure out a way to add to a canned workout.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Still haven't weighed in yet :(
I'm DREADING my weigh in. I should have gone today, but work was total chaos and I was there from 6:00 am to almost 6:00 pm with no lunch and NO FOOD! I was a hungry girl! I was so tired when I got home that after I assisted in kiddo dinner duty, I was sitting on the chair with my son and just snoozed for about 1/2 hour. After getting the kids to bed, I was sitting and feeling crappy, tired and fat so I decided to go to the gym. I'm so glad I did. I had a really good work out. Did some cardio and also did the Fitness Builder Upper Body Pyramid again. Still digging the Fitness Builder app, I'm not sure if I will buy it though. There are tons of exercises on it, but I still feel somewhat limited to "what I know", which isn't much :)
I didn't get to the gym until almost 9:30 and it was packed! I love that Planet Fitness is open 24 hours. I hate being the fattest one there, but at least they have the "no gymtimidation" clause. When I first started going there, I swear I saw some older lady snickering about me to her skinny daughter and I was so pissed and hurt. I didn't say anything because I had my headphones in and wasn't sure they were talking about me, but I swore to myself that if it ever happened again, not only would I confront the jerk but I would also report them to the manager. It totally goes against the Planet Fitness Code of Conduct and I would be okay with getting someone kicked out that was making another person feel bad about being at the gym.
Tomorrow morning I plan to go to MWLC and weigh in. I get the day off work, whoo hoo! Although it's not for anything fun...I have to bring my daughter has to go to the children's hospital in the afternoon for her laser surgery. No food after midnight and no clear liquids after 10:30 am. And she's not even two! Tomorrow is NOT going to be a fun day. She's going to be hungy, pissed, and sore.
Hopefully when my husband gets home from work I will be able to go to the gym for little while to decompress. It will be that or drink wine and I'm trying hard to stay away (although I totally sucked at staying away last week and over the weekend). Oh well, it's a whole new week so time to jump back on the wine wagon.
Today's Workout:
My Workout Log
I didn't get to the gym until almost 9:30 and it was packed! I love that Planet Fitness is open 24 hours. I hate being the fattest one there, but at least they have the "no gymtimidation" clause. When I first started going there, I swear I saw some older lady snickering about me to her skinny daughter and I was so pissed and hurt. I didn't say anything because I had my headphones in and wasn't sure they were talking about me, but I swore to myself that if it ever happened again, not only would I confront the jerk but I would also report them to the manager. It totally goes against the Planet Fitness Code of Conduct and I would be okay with getting someone kicked out that was making another person feel bad about being at the gym.
Tomorrow morning I plan to go to MWLC and weigh in. I get the day off work, whoo hoo! Although it's not for anything fun...I have to bring my daughter has to go to the children's hospital in the afternoon for her laser surgery. No food after midnight and no clear liquids after 10:30 am. And she's not even two! Tomorrow is NOT going to be a fun day. She's going to be hungy, pissed, and sore.
Hopefully when my husband gets home from work I will be able to go to the gym for little while to decompress. It will be that or drink wine and I'm trying hard to stay away (although I totally sucked at staying away last week and over the weekend). Oh well, it's a whole new week so time to jump back on the wine wagon.
Today's Workout:
My Workout Log
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Sunday, March 2, 2014
What a long week!
Wow, what a long week. I spent Tuesday-Friday in Canada at our Group Office. I should have flown...it's a 7 hour drive. Totally sucked.
Anyway, the meetings were pretty good. Didn't really learn much, but it's always good to network with colleagues from other divisions.
Diet was a disaster, so I hope that I didn't gain too much.
Today I got a good workout in. Tomorrow I'll go for a weigh in and probably cry :(
Anyway, the meetings were pretty good. Didn't really learn much, but it's always good to network with colleagues from other divisions.
Diet was a disaster, so I hope that I didn't gain too much.
Today I got a good workout in. Tomorrow I'll go for a weigh in and probably cry :(
Monday, February 24, 2014
Great Weigh-In!
Today I had a great weigh in! I am down another 1.6 pounds since last Thursday! That brings my total loss to 6.3 pounds so far! At this rate, I sure hope to meet my first goal of 220 by March 1st.
I am a little concerned with going out of town for work. First of all, we are driving to Canada, which is like a 7 hour drive. I will NEVER do this again! Second, I'm driving with this heinous bitch. She is so mean, I don't know why I ever agreed to drive with her. NEVER AGAIN!
I am bringing my workout clothes and will do my best to stay the heck away from her. She makes my skin crawl...
Weight Loss Progress:
2/14/14 - 229.3
2/18/14 - 226.2 (-3.1)
2/20/14 - 224.6 (-4.7)
2/24/14 - 223 (-6.3)
I am a little concerned with going out of town for work. First of all, we are driving to Canada, which is like a 7 hour drive. I will NEVER do this again! Second, I'm driving with this heinous bitch. She is so mean, I don't know why I ever agreed to drive with her. NEVER AGAIN!
I am bringing my workout clothes and will do my best to stay the heck away from her. She makes my skin crawl...
Weight Loss Progress:
2/14/14 - 229.3
2/18/14 - 226.2 (-3.1)
2/20/14 - 224.6 (-4.7)
2/24/14 - 223 (-6.3)
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Sunday Burn
Today I had a great workout. I love that they opened a Planet Fitness so close to my house. I'm kind of bummed that they don't offer classes, but they have a ton of equipment and it's very convenient. and cheap :)
I've been using this app called Fitness Builder. It's basically pre-designed workouts for any body part. There are hundreds to choose from. I love it! It's great for someone like me who doesn't want to spend the money on a personal trainer but wants a workout designed for them. It totally takes the guess work out of it and for instance today I did arms and chest so it gave me a whole routine to follow. I'm still on the 30 day trial period but I think I'll purchase it when the trial is done. I'm kind of bummed that it doesn't sync with My Fitness Pal. I bet I could put my workout on there though!
I have to go out of town for work on Tuesday and I remember that the hotel has a gym so I hope to get a couple of workouts in.
Below is today's workout. I also did some cardio and abs.
My Workout Log
I've been using this app called Fitness Builder. It's basically pre-designed workouts for any body part. There are hundreds to choose from. I love it! It's great for someone like me who doesn't want to spend the money on a personal trainer but wants a workout designed for them. It totally takes the guess work out of it and for instance today I did arms and chest so it gave me a whole routine to follow. I'm still on the 30 day trial period but I think I'll purchase it when the trial is done. I'm kind of bummed that it doesn't sync with My Fitness Pal. I bet I could put my workout on there though!
I have to go out of town for work on Tuesday and I remember that the hotel has a gym so I hope to get a couple of workouts in.
Below is today's workout. I also did some cardio and abs.
My Workout Log
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Saturday, February 22, 2014
Well hello, old friend!
I'm very excited to announce that this girl is back on the wagon! I officially restarted MWLC last week. Found out I'm as fat as I was when I started my weight loss in 2011. Seriously...what the crap? Well, no time like the present to acknowledge that I'm fat and I don't want to be fat no more :)
So anyway, got my blood taken last week and the blood results came back - low HDL and pre-diabetic! Geez oh pete's, I'm a fat ass and now this??? So anyway, it time to get.down.to.bid'ness.
I'll go with last Friday's starting weight, which was 229.3. I got weighed in the other day and I was already at 224.6, so I've made some progress already. Just got to keep it up.
My ultimate goal would be to get to 150. I know I can do this if I stick to it. Losing weight isn't impossible, it just takes commitment. Getting healthy and not being embarrassed to get pictures taken with my kiddos is a huge motivation to me. I want people to look at me and say "damn, you look good for being (almost) 43!". I'm realistic that I'm not going to wake up skinny tomorrow...this is a marathon, not a sprint.
My first goal is 220.
What works for me....
- logging my food
- working out
- NO WINE!!!!!
Weight Loss Progress:
2/14/14 - 229.3
2/18/14 - 226.2 (-3.1)
2/20/14 - 224.6 (-4.7)
So anyway, got my blood taken last week and the blood results came back - low HDL and pre-diabetic! Geez oh pete's, I'm a fat ass and now this??? So anyway, it time to get.down.to.bid'ness.
I'll go with last Friday's starting weight, which was 229.3. I got weighed in the other day and I was already at 224.6, so I've made some progress already. Just got to keep it up.
My ultimate goal would be to get to 150. I know I can do this if I stick to it. Losing weight isn't impossible, it just takes commitment. Getting healthy and not being embarrassed to get pictures taken with my kiddos is a huge motivation to me. I want people to look at me and say "damn, you look good for being (almost) 43!". I'm realistic that I'm not going to wake up skinny tomorrow...this is a marathon, not a sprint.
My first goal is 220.
What works for me....
- logging my food
- working out
- NO WINE!!!!!
Weight Loss Progress:
2/14/14 - 229.3
2/18/14 - 226.2 (-3.1)
2/20/14 - 224.6 (-4.7)
Saturday, November 17, 2012
I've got to get my crap together!
I just looked at my last post on October 21, 2012. I was supposed to be getting my crap together to lose weight. Yeah, that didn't work out so great. In fact, I've gained a few pounds. Great. When I went to weigh in the other day I was 224. I'm so pissed at myself.
Today I did well. Got my water in, shakes in, and I didn't cheat! Baby steps, baby steps.
Well, speaking of babies, mine is fussing.
Today I did well. Got my water in, shakes in, and I didn't cheat! Baby steps, baby steps.
Well, speaking of babies, mine is fussing.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Hello Fat Girl In the Mirror
Yep, I'm talking to myself. I'm fat again. It's been about a year and a half since I have been on here and my how times have a changed.
Background:
I ended up getting down to 186 so about 42 pounds lost. I was probably down a couple of pounds from that too but last summer was crazy busy and we spent a lot of time up north so I didn't go for my weigh-ins.
I celebrated my 40th birthday in August 2011 and I got quite the birthday present....I found in September 2011 that I was pregnant! Crazyyyyy!!! We had such a hard time getting pregnant with my son that I never in a million would have thought I could pregnant without trying.
So, yeah, we welcomed our beautiful little girl Elise in May 2012. She is gorgeous and honestly the most amazing baby ever. I know everything thinks that their baby is the best, but I'm sorry, mine really is the best :) Nah, I kid, you probably have good babies too, mine just happens to be amazing.
She sleeps all night, is so happy, lets her 2 1/2 year old brother beat the crap out of her and doesn't tell on him, although we do try to keep a close eye on him to prevent serious injury from occurring LOL.
So, yep, +1 baby and I've gained almost all my weight back. Totally sucks, but totally worth it.
Now I'm 41 and I'm back at the starting point. I am still doing Medical Weight Loss. They have been good to me. I started about 1 month ago with the shakes but I haven't been as committed as I need to be so I woke up this morning with renewed commitment to ME and MY weightloss!
No more pizza, good -bye wine (I'll miss you!) but you can take your calories and suck it.
I want to be skinny. My original goal remains - 160 lbs. I will post a stats update after I get weighed in tomorrow, but I just did a weigh in last week and I was 220.4. That's only down 8 pounds from my original starting weight in December 2010 so I have some work to do!
My first mini goal is to get to 215. I remember that's when I started feeling like my size 18's didn't fit so tight and once your clothes stop fitting tight, it gives you some incentive (at least for me it does).
I will take a new starting picture too so that I can remember that is how people are seeing me (fat) and also as a comparison when I start losing weight so I can see progress.
Happy Sunday!!
Background:
I ended up getting down to 186 so about 42 pounds lost. I was probably down a couple of pounds from that too but last summer was crazy busy and we spent a lot of time up north so I didn't go for my weigh-ins.
I celebrated my 40th birthday in August 2011 and I got quite the birthday present....I found in September 2011 that I was pregnant! Crazyyyyy!!! We had such a hard time getting pregnant with my son that I never in a million would have thought I could pregnant without trying.
So, yeah, we welcomed our beautiful little girl Elise in May 2012. She is gorgeous and honestly the most amazing baby ever. I know everything thinks that their baby is the best, but I'm sorry, mine really is the best :) Nah, I kid, you probably have good babies too, mine just happens to be amazing.
She sleeps all night, is so happy, lets her 2 1/2 year old brother beat the crap out of her and doesn't tell on him, although we do try to keep a close eye on him to prevent serious injury from occurring LOL.
So, yep, +1 baby and I've gained almost all my weight back. Totally sucks, but totally worth it.
Now I'm 41 and I'm back at the starting point. I am still doing Medical Weight Loss. They have been good to me. I started about 1 month ago with the shakes but I haven't been as committed as I need to be so I woke up this morning with renewed commitment to ME and MY weightloss!
No more pizza, good -bye wine (I'll miss you!) but you can take your calories and suck it.
I want to be skinny. My original goal remains - 160 lbs. I will post a stats update after I get weighed in tomorrow, but I just did a weigh in last week and I was 220.4. That's only down 8 pounds from my original starting weight in December 2010 so I have some work to do!
My first mini goal is to get to 215. I remember that's when I started feeling like my size 18's didn't fit so tight and once your clothes stop fitting tight, it gives you some incentive (at least for me it does).
I will take a new starting picture too so that I can remember that is how people are seeing me (fat) and also as a comparison when I start losing weight so I can see progress.
Happy Sunday!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Oh my gosh, way past time for an update!
This chica has been so freaking busy at work that I haven't had a second to update. So, the good news is that I'm still doing good on my diet. Although I have to admit, I'm a little frustrated that my weight loss has started to slow down.
So, drum roll............wait for it...........I weighed in today, and I'm now 197.4 lbs! That is a total of 31.2 pounds lost since I started my weight loss on December 18th! Three months and 31.2 lbs. That's not bad, but it could be better.
The truth? I haven't been exercising like I should be. I have every excuse in the book...I've been working A LOT, I'm tired, the baby has been sick, I've been working at home. But the honest truth is that I'm honestly just tired and haven't felt like it. I'm trying to get recommitted to exercising and I know if I do that I'll jump start the weight loss again. But, I'm soooooooooooo tired! (insert WHINE here!)
However, for the most part, my diet is humming along just fine. I'm so used to drinking the shakes at work that I'm pretty good with it. Some days I get hungry, but most ofo the time, I'm so busy at work that it doesn't even bother me. Or I should say, I'm not hungry enough to cheat.
Everything is going pretty good in general though. I have been able to fit into a couple of pairs of pants that I swore off a few years ago and I LOVE IT! It's almost like having brand new clothes! I actually have five bags of clothes that I took out of my closet that didn't fit anymore because they were too small, so I am excited to dig through them and have new clothes to wear.
And, I know I'm just being a little vain when I say this, but I am really flattered by all the compliments I am getting at work. People are actually telling me that I'm looking skinny! Of course, I'm not really skinny, I still weigh 197 pounds. That's not skinny, actually, I'm still considered obese according to my BMI. F'ing obese! I hate that word!!!
Here are my stats:
Starting Weight:228.6lbs
Current Weight:197.4lbs
Weight Change:-31.2lbs (-13.65%)
Starting BMI:34.76
Current BMI:30.01
BMI Change:-4.75 (-13.67%)
Next Goal: 195 pounds by March 23, 2011
So, drum roll............wait for it...........I weighed in today, and I'm now 197.4 lbs! That is a total of 31.2 pounds lost since I started my weight loss on December 18th! Three months and 31.2 lbs. That's not bad, but it could be better.
The truth? I haven't been exercising like I should be. I have every excuse in the book...I've been working A LOT, I'm tired, the baby has been sick, I've been working at home. But the honest truth is that I'm honestly just tired and haven't felt like it. I'm trying to get recommitted to exercising and I know if I do that I'll jump start the weight loss again. But, I'm soooooooooooo tired! (insert WHINE here!)
However, for the most part, my diet is humming along just fine. I'm so used to drinking the shakes at work that I'm pretty good with it. Some days I get hungry, but most ofo the time, I'm so busy at work that it doesn't even bother me. Or I should say, I'm not hungry enough to cheat.
Everything is going pretty good in general though. I have been able to fit into a couple of pairs of pants that I swore off a few years ago and I LOVE IT! It's almost like having brand new clothes! I actually have five bags of clothes that I took out of my closet that didn't fit anymore because they were too small, so I am excited to dig through them and have new clothes to wear.
And, I know I'm just being a little vain when I say this, but I am really flattered by all the compliments I am getting at work. People are actually telling me that I'm looking skinny! Of course, I'm not really skinny, I still weigh 197 pounds. That's not skinny, actually, I'm still considered obese according to my BMI. F'ing obese! I hate that word!!!
Here are my stats:
Starting Weight:228.6lbs
Current Weight:197.4lbs
Weight Change:-31.2lbs (-13.65%)
Starting BMI:34.76
Current BMI:30.01
BMI Change:-4.75 (-13.67%)
Next Goal: 195 pounds by March 23, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Compliments
I have to admit, I have received a lot of compliments at work for the weight I have lost. It seems like every day for the last two weeks, someone has come up to me and said, "Fancy, have you lost weight? You look so good." It's very nice to see that people are noticing. Some of the people have asked how much I've lost, but I have not told anyone at work how much I've lost; primarily because I still have a lot to lose to my goal weight.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Hallelujah!
Oh my God, Oh my God, OH MY GOD! I'm soooo excited!!!
I haven't been able to weigh in for a whole week. Work has totally sucked....I'm so busy, I have to schedule pee breaks (well, not really, but sometimes it feels like it). I don't use my scale at home because I'm no good at that AT ALL. My last 55 attempts at weight loss, I would weigh myself in the morning and if I had even a smidge of a weight loss, I would totally sabotage myself and would spend my day stuffing my fat face with chocolate, candy, chips and salsa, cookies, Jimmy John's, french fries, ummm, oh and maybe a donut if someone brought them in. HAHA!
Of course not all at one time, but I seriously would blow my diet every single day. I felt like every day I was waking up and starting my diet over and every day by about 4:00 pm I had blown it. I hated living my life that way and watching myself get fatterandfatterandfatter. I was busting at my size 18 seams and it sucked!!!
Okay, now for my good news! I OFFICIALLY HAVE LOST 28.2 POUNDS! Like I said earlier, work has been really busy and I haven't been to MWLC since last week Monday. Since then, I lost 3.8 pound, accomplished my weight goal #4 - lose 25 pounds and weight goal #5 - get to 200 pounds! Of course, I'm still a smidge over 200 because I "officially" weigh 200.4 pounds, but I am taking it!
I don't know what day I actually hit my mini weight goal of 25 pounds lost. That's one of the reasons why I like weighing in three times a week. I know some people can't handle that, but for me, it keeps me honest. Otherwise, I'm afraid I would cheat.
I think Weight Watchers is great, and once I get to my goal weight, I might try it, but I'm not sure. I can't handle weighing in only once a week. And I don't really like the classes really if I have to be completely honest. And I also have a hard time with having to look and calculate EVERYTHING I eat. When I tried it before, I found that I was always eating frozen lean cuisines because I hated having to add up ingredients.
Okay, after reading the above, maybe I won't join Weight Watchers after all LOL. Don't get me wrong, I know the program works, and I've seen a lot of people who've had amazing results, but it just doesn't work for me.
I guess the reason this diet has worked for me is because I've been just drinking the shakes three times a day and eating dinner. It's easy to follow and I don't have to think about how many calories everything is. I'll just usually make a bunch of chicken, weigh some out for dinner, steam some green beans, and I'm good. I have to admit that the hardest part for me is eating the carb I'm supposed to eat every day. I'll usually just have my 3 oz of chicken, green beans, 1/2 baked potato (sometimes) and that's my meal. Easy peasy.
It works for me because I'm not one of those people who needs a lot of variety in their meals. I could literally eat the same thing every day for a month. I might get a little bored with it, but not enough to switch. Especially if it was already cooked HAHA.
One of the things I have given up is table salt. I haven't put salt on any of my food since December. A lot of times my food is a little bland without it, but to be honest, I don't notice it nearly as much as I used to in the beginning. But one thing I DO notice is how SALTY some things are. I had a couple of chips the other day and I felt like my tongue swelled up because they were so salty.
WEIGHT GOAL #6:
I've decided that my next weight goal is to get to 30 pounds weight loss, which would be 198.6 pounds. I would LOVE to be able to do this by this Saturday, March 5th. That is only 1.8 pounds from where I am right now and if I don't cheat and I exercise, I should be able to accomplish this. Oooh, I hope so.
Well, I'm off to stalk some weight loss blogs, check in to the Healthy U Challenge, snag my 25 pound weight loss badge (YAY!), and go watch the Biggest Loser.
UPDATE: Check out my awesome 25 pound badge to the right ------>
I'm so proud of this!
I haven't been able to weigh in for a whole week. Work has totally sucked....I'm so busy, I have to schedule pee breaks (well, not really, but sometimes it feels like it). I don't use my scale at home because I'm no good at that AT ALL. My last 55 attempts at weight loss, I would weigh myself in the morning and if I had even a smidge of a weight loss, I would totally sabotage myself and would spend my day stuffing my fat face with chocolate, candy, chips and salsa, cookies, Jimmy John's, french fries, ummm, oh and maybe a donut if someone brought them in. HAHA!
Of course not all at one time, but I seriously would blow my diet every single day. I felt like every day I was waking up and starting my diet over and every day by about 4:00 pm I had blown it. I hated living my life that way and watching myself get fatterandfatterandfatter. I was busting at my size 18 seams and it sucked!!!
Okay, now for my good news! I OFFICIALLY HAVE LOST 28.2 POUNDS! Like I said earlier, work has been really busy and I haven't been to MWLC since last week Monday. Since then, I lost 3.8 pound, accomplished my weight goal #4 - lose 25 pounds and weight goal #5 - get to 200 pounds! Of course, I'm still a smidge over 200 because I "officially" weigh 200.4 pounds, but I am taking it!
I don't know what day I actually hit my mini weight goal of 25 pounds lost. That's one of the reasons why I like weighing in three times a week. I know some people can't handle that, but for me, it keeps me honest. Otherwise, I'm afraid I would cheat.
I think Weight Watchers is great, and once I get to my goal weight, I might try it, but I'm not sure. I can't handle weighing in only once a week. And I don't really like the classes really if I have to be completely honest. And I also have a hard time with having to look and calculate EVERYTHING I eat. When I tried it before, I found that I was always eating frozen lean cuisines because I hated having to add up ingredients.
Okay, after reading the above, maybe I won't join Weight Watchers after all LOL. Don't get me wrong, I know the program works, and I've seen a lot of people who've had amazing results, but it just doesn't work for me.
I guess the reason this diet has worked for me is because I've been just drinking the shakes three times a day and eating dinner. It's easy to follow and I don't have to think about how many calories everything is. I'll just usually make a bunch of chicken, weigh some out for dinner, steam some green beans, and I'm good. I have to admit that the hardest part for me is eating the carb I'm supposed to eat every day. I'll usually just have my 3 oz of chicken, green beans, 1/2 baked potato (sometimes) and that's my meal. Easy peasy.
It works for me because I'm not one of those people who needs a lot of variety in their meals. I could literally eat the same thing every day for a month. I might get a little bored with it, but not enough to switch. Especially if it was already cooked HAHA.
One of the things I have given up is table salt. I haven't put salt on any of my food since December. A lot of times my food is a little bland without it, but to be honest, I don't notice it nearly as much as I used to in the beginning. But one thing I DO notice is how SALTY some things are. I had a couple of chips the other day and I felt like my tongue swelled up because they were so salty.
WEIGHT GOAL #6:
I've decided that my next weight goal is to get to 30 pounds weight loss, which would be 198.6 pounds. I would LOVE to be able to do this by this Saturday, March 5th. That is only 1.8 pounds from where I am right now and if I don't cheat and I exercise, I should be able to accomplish this. Oooh, I hope so.
Well, I'm off to stalk some weight loss blogs, check in to the Healthy U Challenge, snag my 25 pound weight loss badge (YAY!), and go watch the Biggest Loser.
UPDATE: Check out my awesome 25 pound badge to the right ------>
I'm so proud of this!
Monday, February 21, 2011
Crappity!
Turns out I had THE WORST.TRIP.EVER in Costa Rica. Why, you ask? Well, here it goes:
1) My luggage did not arrive with me in Costa Rica. So, they told me that my bag would be there at 7:45 pm. I went to my hotel and checked in and at 7:45 called the number they gave me - no answer! I went back to the airport and had to fight with the security guards (who do not speak english) for two hours before they finally called a Continental person to help me. Two hours later, I finally get some assistance and guess what? My bag is sitting in the pile of unclaimed luggage. I am about 95% certain that if I had not gone and picked up my bag I would never have received it.
2) I didn't have a room for a night because my trip was changed and I forgot to change my reservations. So Wednesday was booked. I had to bunk on a roll a way bed in my coworkers room. Who, coincidentally, is a CHAIN SMOKER. Thank God she didn't smoke in the room, but she did stand in the doorway with the door wide open smoking. Guess where the smoke blew? You guessed it! In the room. I feel bad for bitching since I was imposing on her, but my God, it was like a chimney!
3) I woke up Wednesday and was getting in to take a shower and NO COLD WATER! Just scalding burning hot water coming out of the both the hot and cold faucets. I had to sponge bath and go to work with dirty hair. Gross.
4) My husband emails me on Thursday and asked me if I "unfriended" his mom from Facebook? What in the f? Are you serious? Dear lord, no, I didn't unfriend my mother in law. Even though she annoys the shit out of me, I did not unfriend her. I did make it so that she cannot see updates on my wall, but I didn't unfriend her. Seriously, her and my FIL came to our house to help my husband out and visit with the baby and she's worried that I unfriended her from Facebook? She needs a job or something....she has way too much time on her hands. So needless to say, crazy MIL once again is able to pry into my life.
5) I sucked on my diet!!!!! Out of everything else, this is what pisses me off the most. I mean, for the most part I did "okay". But what I was worried about came true. I drank my shakes for breakfast, but I had Subway for lunch twice and at dinner, I did try to order something chicken and "semi" healthy. But that is easier said than done. I asked our waiter one night if the chicken had skin on it. He said yes, so I was going to order something else, but they didn't have any other chicken dishes, so I resigned myself to picking the skin off. My dinner arrive and there was no skin! Of course I know it's my fault that I can't communicate better. I'm in their country crying out loud. I wish I knew spanish!
I did drink beer a couple of times and I had wine one night. I didn't exercise at all! I was going to bring my exercise videos but I didn't. So then my plan was to go to the hotel gym, but I didn't. We worked until 7 or 8 every night and then we had to try and get dinner after that. So basically it was a bust.
I stopped at MWLC on my way home Friday after my plane landed and I weighed 206. So basically, I had gained 1.8 pounds on my trip. I was a little swollen, so I think some of that was water weight.
I went back today for my weigh in and I am back to 204.2 - this is the same weight I was at on 2/12. So in 9 days, I have not lost a since pound. Boo! :( I did get measured today though and since January 18th, I have lost 9.25 inches. I don't remember exactly the numbers, but I l think I lost like 4 1/2 inches off my bust, 3.75 off my waist and 1 inch of my hips.
I haven't worked out in over two weeks, so tonight as soon as I got home from my weigh in, I did my JM Shred It DVD. It felt good! I am determined to get to goal #4 - 25 pounds lost - by this Thursday! I only have .6 pounds to go, there is no reason I can't do it if I commit!!!!
1) My luggage did not arrive with me in Costa Rica. So, they told me that my bag would be there at 7:45 pm. I went to my hotel and checked in and at 7:45 called the number they gave me - no answer! I went back to the airport and had to fight with the security guards (who do not speak english) for two hours before they finally called a Continental person to help me. Two hours later, I finally get some assistance and guess what? My bag is sitting in the pile of unclaimed luggage. I am about 95% certain that if I had not gone and picked up my bag I would never have received it.
2) I didn't have a room for a night because my trip was changed and I forgot to change my reservations. So Wednesday was booked. I had to bunk on a roll a way bed in my coworkers room. Who, coincidentally, is a CHAIN SMOKER. Thank God she didn't smoke in the room, but she did stand in the doorway with the door wide open smoking. Guess where the smoke blew? You guessed it! In the room. I feel bad for bitching since I was imposing on her, but my God, it was like a chimney!
3) I woke up Wednesday and was getting in to take a shower and NO COLD WATER! Just scalding burning hot water coming out of the both the hot and cold faucets. I had to sponge bath and go to work with dirty hair. Gross.
4) My husband emails me on Thursday and asked me if I "unfriended" his mom from Facebook? What in the f? Are you serious? Dear lord, no, I didn't unfriend my mother in law. Even though she annoys the shit out of me, I did not unfriend her. I did make it so that she cannot see updates on my wall, but I didn't unfriend her. Seriously, her and my FIL came to our house to help my husband out and visit with the baby and she's worried that I unfriended her from Facebook? She needs a job or something....she has way too much time on her hands. So needless to say, crazy MIL once again is able to pry into my life.
5) I sucked on my diet!!!!! Out of everything else, this is what pisses me off the most. I mean, for the most part I did "okay". But what I was worried about came true. I drank my shakes for breakfast, but I had Subway for lunch twice and at dinner, I did try to order something chicken and "semi" healthy. But that is easier said than done. I asked our waiter one night if the chicken had skin on it. He said yes, so I was going to order something else, but they didn't have any other chicken dishes, so I resigned myself to picking the skin off. My dinner arrive and there was no skin! Of course I know it's my fault that I can't communicate better. I'm in their country crying out loud. I wish I knew spanish!
I did drink beer a couple of times and I had wine one night. I didn't exercise at all! I was going to bring my exercise videos but I didn't. So then my plan was to go to the hotel gym, but I didn't. We worked until 7 or 8 every night and then we had to try and get dinner after that. So basically it was a bust.
I stopped at MWLC on my way home Friday after my plane landed and I weighed 206. So basically, I had gained 1.8 pounds on my trip. I was a little swollen, so I think some of that was water weight.
I went back today for my weigh in and I am back to 204.2 - this is the same weight I was at on 2/12. So in 9 days, I have not lost a since pound. Boo! :( I did get measured today though and since January 18th, I have lost 9.25 inches. I don't remember exactly the numbers, but I l think I lost like 4 1/2 inches off my bust, 3.75 off my waist and 1 inch of my hips.
I haven't worked out in over two weeks, so tonight as soon as I got home from my weigh in, I did my JM Shred It DVD. It felt good! I am determined to get to goal #4 - 25 pounds lost - by this Thursday! I only have .6 pounds to go, there is no reason I can't do it if I commit!!!!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
This week will be challenging
This week I have to travel for work. I'm going to Costa Rica, which sounds pretty cool, right? Well, to be honest, I don't really get to do any sightseeing. I fly in on Monday, work work, work, work, and then fly out again on Friday. Our hotel has a shuttle that drops us off at work in the morning and picks us up, so I don't even rent a car. Not that I mind that because driving there is CRAZY. Seriously, I have witnessed so many accidents when I've been there. There are a ton of motorcyclists and they weave in and out of traffic and most of the accidents I see involve a motorcyle and a car. Usually, the car has won. The other thing about driving there is that people steal the manhole covers out of the street so you can be driving along and all of a suddent there is this big gaping hole. I've never actually gotten caught in one, but you can usually tell when one is coming p becuase the drivers in front of you swerve really fast, so other drivers will just usually do what the car in front of them does.
I am reallly worried about my diet when I am down there. Not so much about breakfast and dinner because I am bringing my shakes, but mainly about dinner. And drinks. I am going down with a few people from work, so there is always dinner out somewhere and wine (my nemesis LOL). The thing is, most of the restaurants serve really rich food covered in sauces or some kind of something melted on it. Most of the wait staff speaks english...to an extent. So you're good as long as you don't deviate from the menu. Then it's kind of like you order at your own risk.
Oh well, I hope I'm worrying for nothing...I'm sure I'll be fine. I just want to make sure I don't blow my diet. So there will be no weigh ins for me next week, but my hotel has wireless, so I will probably post an update.
I am reallly worried about my diet when I am down there. Not so much about breakfast and dinner because I am bringing my shakes, but mainly about dinner. And drinks. I am going down with a few people from work, so there is always dinner out somewhere and wine (my nemesis LOL). The thing is, most of the restaurants serve really rich food covered in sauces or some kind of something melted on it. Most of the wait staff speaks english...to an extent. So you're good as long as you don't deviate from the menu. Then it's kind of like you order at your own risk.
Oh well, I hope I'm worrying for nothing...I'm sure I'll be fine. I just want to make sure I don't blow my diet. So there will be no weigh ins for me next week, but my hotel has wireless, so I will probably post an update.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Fourth goal almost met and still "obese"!
Today I weighed in and I lost 2.2 pounds since Tuesday! That makes my weight 204.2 today! My fourth goal is to get to 25 lbs lost. When I started in December, I weighed in at 228.6, so that means I ony have about .6 lb's to go. That's just a little over 1/2 pound....a healthy poop some might say HAHA. I had hoped to hit that goal by Thursday, Feb. 10th, so I'm a little off on meeting it, but I'm pretty sure I'll hit it next week.
I know that I'm not always going to have great weigh ins, but I sure do love it when I get on the scale and see my numbers getting lower. It makes me feel like the hard work I'm putting in is working. I've never gone this long on a diet before. EVER. But, then again, I've never lost this much weight before either. And I like it!
We are going on vacation in April and I want to be able to wear a bathing suit and not look disgusting. I'm still very embarrassed of my body. I'm still considered "obese". When I first started my diet, I was "severely obese". God, what a disgusting term. They might as well call it "severely disgusting" because anyone who gets labelled any type of obese really gets a blow to their self-esteem. I mean, seriously, it's not enough to call someone fat, or even very fat. They have to put these terms like obese and severely disgustingly grossly obese out there (okay, I know it's not really called that, but that's how I feel when I hear or see that word written about me).
I was just looking at my weight chart and realized I've lost 10.67% of my body weight. My BMI has gone from 34.71 to 31.05. I won't be out of the "obese" category until I hit about 196. Then I'm just fat, or "overweight" until I hit 170 pounds.
Well now I feel like sh!t. Thanks Dr. Google. LOL. Nah, I'm just kidding, google didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. It's not like I'm mortified to find out that the internet thinks I'm fat. Um, hello, I think I'm fat! That's why I'm on a freaking diet!
I was talking with some of my friends on FB last night and we are all dieting. I made the comment that I wouldn't be offended if someone callled me fat, because I AM Fat! My response would be NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Now go solve your next mystery!
Someone at work pulled me aside the other day and whispered to me, "are you losing weight?". I was like, I'm trying. She goes, "well you can tell." So of course I said thanks. But she didn't say, "WOW, you look GREAT!" or anything fantastic or complimentary like that. She just told me that she could tell. Tell what, I'm not sure. Maybe she can tell I'm not as fat as I used to be. Or maybe she can tell that my ass is four inches smaller than it used to be (according to my last measurement check last month). Or maybe she can tell that you can't see my panty lines because my pants are too tight anymore! It's anyone's guess. She didn't tell me how she can tell. She just said that she could tell.
I kid. She's a very nice lady who happens to be very very thin and has probably never had a weight problem in her life. She was being nice and I appreciate that she took the time to say something to me.
So, since I am talking about work stories, here's another funny one to the exact opposite extreme. Last summer (8 months post-partum) someone actually asked me if I was pregnant again! I was like, "what the F? Hell no, I'm not pregnant." They were so embarassed but seriously I did not care. I'm glad they were embarassed. What an idiot. Rule #1: DO NOT ASK A FAT PERSON IF SHE IS PREGNANT! I had a baby 8 months ago and, yep, I'm fat. But, seriously, d'ya think I'm pregnant, dumb ass?!
Okay, I just set my fifth goal - to be at 200 pounds by 2/25/2011; that's 13 days away. According to Weight Tracker, this is going to be "very difficult". Um, no kidding! Do these computer programs think I'm a flaming idiot? Of course it's difficult. It's difficult to drive by the bagel shop and not stop to get a bagel and a yummy coffee drink. It's difficult not to eat a bunch of chocolate because it's valentines day. It's difficult not to drink my damn wine every night! So yeah, of course I know it's going to be difficult. I'm not doing this because it's easy. I'm doing it because I don't want to be fat anymore.
And you know what? I actually don't care if I don't exactly hit my goal on the target date. But I like having goals and I like pushing myself to meet those goals. So, if I wanted it to be "easy", I could have put my next goal to be at 200 by March 25th, but I'm not doing easy this time. Easy for me is kicking back with some wine and maybe snacking on some pita chips and hummus not paying any attention to how many calories I'm putting in my body. I've done easy for way too long.
I know that I'm not always going to have great weigh ins, but I sure do love it when I get on the scale and see my numbers getting lower. It makes me feel like the hard work I'm putting in is working. I've never gone this long on a diet before. EVER. But, then again, I've never lost this much weight before either. And I like it!
We are going on vacation in April and I want to be able to wear a bathing suit and not look disgusting. I'm still very embarrassed of my body. I'm still considered "obese". When I first started my diet, I was "severely obese". God, what a disgusting term. They might as well call it "severely disgusting" because anyone who gets labelled any type of obese really gets a blow to their self-esteem. I mean, seriously, it's not enough to call someone fat, or even very fat. They have to put these terms like obese and severely disgustingly grossly obese out there (okay, I know it's not really called that, but that's how I feel when I hear or see that word written about me).
I was just looking at my weight chart and realized I've lost 10.67% of my body weight. My BMI has gone from 34.71 to 31.05. I won't be out of the "obese" category until I hit about 196. Then I'm just fat, or "overweight" until I hit 170 pounds.
Well now I feel like sh!t. Thanks Dr. Google. LOL. Nah, I'm just kidding, google didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. It's not like I'm mortified to find out that the internet thinks I'm fat. Um, hello, I think I'm fat! That's why I'm on a freaking diet!
I was talking with some of my friends on FB last night and we are all dieting. I made the comment that I wouldn't be offended if someone callled me fat, because I AM Fat! My response would be NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Now go solve your next mystery!
Someone at work pulled me aside the other day and whispered to me, "are you losing weight?". I was like, I'm trying. She goes, "well you can tell." So of course I said thanks. But she didn't say, "WOW, you look GREAT!" or anything fantastic or complimentary like that. She just told me that she could tell. Tell what, I'm not sure. Maybe she can tell I'm not as fat as I used to be. Or maybe she can tell that my ass is four inches smaller than it used to be (according to my last measurement check last month). Or maybe she can tell that you can't see my panty lines because my pants are too tight anymore! It's anyone's guess. She didn't tell me how she can tell. She just said that she could tell.
I kid. She's a very nice lady who happens to be very very thin and has probably never had a weight problem in her life. She was being nice and I appreciate that she took the time to say something to me.
So, since I am talking about work stories, here's another funny one to the exact opposite extreme. Last summer (8 months post-partum) someone actually asked me if I was pregnant again! I was like, "what the F? Hell no, I'm not pregnant." They were so embarassed but seriously I did not care. I'm glad they were embarassed. What an idiot. Rule #1: DO NOT ASK A FAT PERSON IF SHE IS PREGNANT! I had a baby 8 months ago and, yep, I'm fat. But, seriously, d'ya think I'm pregnant, dumb ass?!
Okay, I just set my fifth goal - to be at 200 pounds by 2/25/2011; that's 13 days away. According to Weight Tracker, this is going to be "very difficult". Um, no kidding! Do these computer programs think I'm a flaming idiot? Of course it's difficult. It's difficult to drive by the bagel shop and not stop to get a bagel and a yummy coffee drink. It's difficult not to eat a bunch of chocolate because it's valentines day. It's difficult not to drink my damn wine every night! So yeah, of course I know it's going to be difficult. I'm not doing this because it's easy. I'm doing it because I don't want to be fat anymore.
And you know what? I actually don't care if I don't exactly hit my goal on the target date. But I like having goals and I like pushing myself to meet those goals. So, if I wanted it to be "easy", I could have put my next goal to be at 200 by March 25th, but I'm not doing easy this time. Easy for me is kicking back with some wine and maybe snacking on some pita chips and hummus not paying any attention to how many calories I'm putting in my body. I've done easy for way too long.
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