This chica has been so freaking busy at work that I haven't had a second to update. So, the good news is that I'm still doing good on my diet. Although I have to admit, I'm a little frustrated that my weight loss has started to slow down.
So, drum roll............wait for it...........I weighed in today, and I'm now 197.4 lbs! That is a total of 31.2 pounds lost since I started my weight loss on December 18th! Three months and 31.2 lbs. That's not bad, but it could be better.
The truth? I haven't been exercising like I should be. I have every excuse in the book...I've been working A LOT, I'm tired, the baby has been sick, I've been working at home. But the honest truth is that I'm honestly just tired and haven't felt like it. I'm trying to get recommitted to exercising and I know if I do that I'll jump start the weight loss again. But, I'm soooooooooooo tired! (insert WHINE here!)
However, for the most part, my diet is humming along just fine. I'm so used to drinking the shakes at work that I'm pretty good with it. Some days I get hungry, but most ofo the time, I'm so busy at work that it doesn't even bother me. Or I should say, I'm not hungry enough to cheat.
Everything is going pretty good in general though. I have been able to fit into a couple of pairs of pants that I swore off a few years ago and I LOVE IT! It's almost like having brand new clothes! I actually have five bags of clothes that I took out of my closet that didn't fit anymore because they were too small, so I am excited to dig through them and have new clothes to wear.
And, I know I'm just being a little vain when I say this, but I am really flattered by all the compliments I am getting at work. People are actually telling me that I'm looking skinny! Of course, I'm not really skinny, I still weigh 197 pounds. That's not skinny, actually, I'm still considered obese according to my BMI. F'ing obese! I hate that word!!!
Here are my stats:
Starting Weight:228.6lbs
Current Weight:197.4lbs
Weight Change:-31.2lbs (-13.65%)
Starting BMI:34.76
Current BMI:30.01
BMI Change:-4.75 (-13.67%)
Next Goal: 195 pounds by March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Compliments
I have to admit, I have received a lot of compliments at work for the weight I have lost. It seems like every day for the last two weeks, someone has come up to me and said, "Fancy, have you lost weight? You look so good." It's very nice to see that people are noticing. Some of the people have asked how much I've lost, but I have not told anyone at work how much I've lost; primarily because I still have a lot to lose to my goal weight.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Hallelujah!
Oh my God, Oh my God, OH MY GOD! I'm soooo excited!!!
I haven't been able to weigh in for a whole week. Work has totally sucked....I'm so busy, I have to schedule pee breaks (well, not really, but sometimes it feels like it). I don't use my scale at home because I'm no good at that AT ALL. My last 55 attempts at weight loss, I would weigh myself in the morning and if I had even a smidge of a weight loss, I would totally sabotage myself and would spend my day stuffing my fat face with chocolate, candy, chips and salsa, cookies, Jimmy John's, french fries, ummm, oh and maybe a donut if someone brought them in. HAHA!
Of course not all at one time, but I seriously would blow my diet every single day. I felt like every day I was waking up and starting my diet over and every day by about 4:00 pm I had blown it. I hated living my life that way and watching myself get fatterandfatterandfatter. I was busting at my size 18 seams and it sucked!!!
Okay, now for my good news! I OFFICIALLY HAVE LOST 28.2 POUNDS! Like I said earlier, work has been really busy and I haven't been to MWLC since last week Monday. Since then, I lost 3.8 pound, accomplished my weight goal #4 - lose 25 pounds and weight goal #5 - get to 200 pounds! Of course, I'm still a smidge over 200 because I "officially" weigh 200.4 pounds, but I am taking it!
I don't know what day I actually hit my mini weight goal of 25 pounds lost. That's one of the reasons why I like weighing in three times a week. I know some people can't handle that, but for me, it keeps me honest. Otherwise, I'm afraid I would cheat.
I think Weight Watchers is great, and once I get to my goal weight, I might try it, but I'm not sure. I can't handle weighing in only once a week. And I don't really like the classes really if I have to be completely honest. And I also have a hard time with having to look and calculate EVERYTHING I eat. When I tried it before, I found that I was always eating frozen lean cuisines because I hated having to add up ingredients.
Okay, after reading the above, maybe I won't join Weight Watchers after all LOL. Don't get me wrong, I know the program works, and I've seen a lot of people who've had amazing results, but it just doesn't work for me.
I guess the reason this diet has worked for me is because I've been just drinking the shakes three times a day and eating dinner. It's easy to follow and I don't have to think about how many calories everything is. I'll just usually make a bunch of chicken, weigh some out for dinner, steam some green beans, and I'm good. I have to admit that the hardest part for me is eating the carb I'm supposed to eat every day. I'll usually just have my 3 oz of chicken, green beans, 1/2 baked potato (sometimes) and that's my meal. Easy peasy.
It works for me because I'm not one of those people who needs a lot of variety in their meals. I could literally eat the same thing every day for a month. I might get a little bored with it, but not enough to switch. Especially if it was already cooked HAHA.
One of the things I have given up is table salt. I haven't put salt on any of my food since December. A lot of times my food is a little bland without it, but to be honest, I don't notice it nearly as much as I used to in the beginning. But one thing I DO notice is how SALTY some things are. I had a couple of chips the other day and I felt like my tongue swelled up because they were so salty.
WEIGHT GOAL #6:
I've decided that my next weight goal is to get to 30 pounds weight loss, which would be 198.6 pounds. I would LOVE to be able to do this by this Saturday, March 5th. That is only 1.8 pounds from where I am right now and if I don't cheat and I exercise, I should be able to accomplish this. Oooh, I hope so.
Well, I'm off to stalk some weight loss blogs, check in to the Healthy U Challenge, snag my 25 pound weight loss badge (YAY!), and go watch the Biggest Loser.
UPDATE: Check out my awesome 25 pound badge to the right ------>
I'm so proud of this!
I haven't been able to weigh in for a whole week. Work has totally sucked....I'm so busy, I have to schedule pee breaks (well, not really, but sometimes it feels like it). I don't use my scale at home because I'm no good at that AT ALL. My last 55 attempts at weight loss, I would weigh myself in the morning and if I had even a smidge of a weight loss, I would totally sabotage myself and would spend my day stuffing my fat face with chocolate, candy, chips and salsa, cookies, Jimmy John's, french fries, ummm, oh and maybe a donut if someone brought them in. HAHA!
Of course not all at one time, but I seriously would blow my diet every single day. I felt like every day I was waking up and starting my diet over and every day by about 4:00 pm I had blown it. I hated living my life that way and watching myself get fatterandfatterandfatter. I was busting at my size 18 seams and it sucked!!!
Okay, now for my good news! I OFFICIALLY HAVE LOST 28.2 POUNDS! Like I said earlier, work has been really busy and I haven't been to MWLC since last week Monday. Since then, I lost 3.8 pound, accomplished my weight goal #4 - lose 25 pounds and weight goal #5 - get to 200 pounds! Of course, I'm still a smidge over 200 because I "officially" weigh 200.4 pounds, but I am taking it!
I don't know what day I actually hit my mini weight goal of 25 pounds lost. That's one of the reasons why I like weighing in three times a week. I know some people can't handle that, but for me, it keeps me honest. Otherwise, I'm afraid I would cheat.
I think Weight Watchers is great, and once I get to my goal weight, I might try it, but I'm not sure. I can't handle weighing in only once a week. And I don't really like the classes really if I have to be completely honest. And I also have a hard time with having to look and calculate EVERYTHING I eat. When I tried it before, I found that I was always eating frozen lean cuisines because I hated having to add up ingredients.
Okay, after reading the above, maybe I won't join Weight Watchers after all LOL. Don't get me wrong, I know the program works, and I've seen a lot of people who've had amazing results, but it just doesn't work for me.
I guess the reason this diet has worked for me is because I've been just drinking the shakes three times a day and eating dinner. It's easy to follow and I don't have to think about how many calories everything is. I'll just usually make a bunch of chicken, weigh some out for dinner, steam some green beans, and I'm good. I have to admit that the hardest part for me is eating the carb I'm supposed to eat every day. I'll usually just have my 3 oz of chicken, green beans, 1/2 baked potato (sometimes) and that's my meal. Easy peasy.
It works for me because I'm not one of those people who needs a lot of variety in their meals. I could literally eat the same thing every day for a month. I might get a little bored with it, but not enough to switch. Especially if it was already cooked HAHA.
One of the things I have given up is table salt. I haven't put salt on any of my food since December. A lot of times my food is a little bland without it, but to be honest, I don't notice it nearly as much as I used to in the beginning. But one thing I DO notice is how SALTY some things are. I had a couple of chips the other day and I felt like my tongue swelled up because they were so salty.
WEIGHT GOAL #6:
I've decided that my next weight goal is to get to 30 pounds weight loss, which would be 198.6 pounds. I would LOVE to be able to do this by this Saturday, March 5th. That is only 1.8 pounds from where I am right now and if I don't cheat and I exercise, I should be able to accomplish this. Oooh, I hope so.
Well, I'm off to stalk some weight loss blogs, check in to the Healthy U Challenge, snag my 25 pound weight loss badge (YAY!), and go watch the Biggest Loser.
UPDATE: Check out my awesome 25 pound badge to the right ------>
I'm so proud of this!
Monday, February 21, 2011
Crappity!
Turns out I had THE WORST.TRIP.EVER in Costa Rica. Why, you ask? Well, here it goes:
1) My luggage did not arrive with me in Costa Rica. So, they told me that my bag would be there at 7:45 pm. I went to my hotel and checked in and at 7:45 called the number they gave me - no answer! I went back to the airport and had to fight with the security guards (who do not speak english) for two hours before they finally called a Continental person to help me. Two hours later, I finally get some assistance and guess what? My bag is sitting in the pile of unclaimed luggage. I am about 95% certain that if I had not gone and picked up my bag I would never have received it.
2) I didn't have a room for a night because my trip was changed and I forgot to change my reservations. So Wednesday was booked. I had to bunk on a roll a way bed in my coworkers room. Who, coincidentally, is a CHAIN SMOKER. Thank God she didn't smoke in the room, but she did stand in the doorway with the door wide open smoking. Guess where the smoke blew? You guessed it! In the room. I feel bad for bitching since I was imposing on her, but my God, it was like a chimney!
3) I woke up Wednesday and was getting in to take a shower and NO COLD WATER! Just scalding burning hot water coming out of the both the hot and cold faucets. I had to sponge bath and go to work with dirty hair. Gross.
4) My husband emails me on Thursday and asked me if I "unfriended" his mom from Facebook? What in the f? Are you serious? Dear lord, no, I didn't unfriend my mother in law. Even though she annoys the shit out of me, I did not unfriend her. I did make it so that she cannot see updates on my wall, but I didn't unfriend her. Seriously, her and my FIL came to our house to help my husband out and visit with the baby and she's worried that I unfriended her from Facebook? She needs a job or something....she has way too much time on her hands. So needless to say, crazy MIL once again is able to pry into my life.
5) I sucked on my diet!!!!! Out of everything else, this is what pisses me off the most. I mean, for the most part I did "okay". But what I was worried about came true. I drank my shakes for breakfast, but I had Subway for lunch twice and at dinner, I did try to order something chicken and "semi" healthy. But that is easier said than done. I asked our waiter one night if the chicken had skin on it. He said yes, so I was going to order something else, but they didn't have any other chicken dishes, so I resigned myself to picking the skin off. My dinner arrive and there was no skin! Of course I know it's my fault that I can't communicate better. I'm in their country crying out loud. I wish I knew spanish!
I did drink beer a couple of times and I had wine one night. I didn't exercise at all! I was going to bring my exercise videos but I didn't. So then my plan was to go to the hotel gym, but I didn't. We worked until 7 or 8 every night and then we had to try and get dinner after that. So basically it was a bust.
I stopped at MWLC on my way home Friday after my plane landed and I weighed 206. So basically, I had gained 1.8 pounds on my trip. I was a little swollen, so I think some of that was water weight.
I went back today for my weigh in and I am back to 204.2 - this is the same weight I was at on 2/12. So in 9 days, I have not lost a since pound. Boo! :( I did get measured today though and since January 18th, I have lost 9.25 inches. I don't remember exactly the numbers, but I l think I lost like 4 1/2 inches off my bust, 3.75 off my waist and 1 inch of my hips.
I haven't worked out in over two weeks, so tonight as soon as I got home from my weigh in, I did my JM Shred It DVD. It felt good! I am determined to get to goal #4 - 25 pounds lost - by this Thursday! I only have .6 pounds to go, there is no reason I can't do it if I commit!!!!
1) My luggage did not arrive with me in Costa Rica. So, they told me that my bag would be there at 7:45 pm. I went to my hotel and checked in and at 7:45 called the number they gave me - no answer! I went back to the airport and had to fight with the security guards (who do not speak english) for two hours before they finally called a Continental person to help me. Two hours later, I finally get some assistance and guess what? My bag is sitting in the pile of unclaimed luggage. I am about 95% certain that if I had not gone and picked up my bag I would never have received it.
2) I didn't have a room for a night because my trip was changed and I forgot to change my reservations. So Wednesday was booked. I had to bunk on a roll a way bed in my coworkers room. Who, coincidentally, is a CHAIN SMOKER. Thank God she didn't smoke in the room, but she did stand in the doorway with the door wide open smoking. Guess where the smoke blew? You guessed it! In the room. I feel bad for bitching since I was imposing on her, but my God, it was like a chimney!
3) I woke up Wednesday and was getting in to take a shower and NO COLD WATER! Just scalding burning hot water coming out of the both the hot and cold faucets. I had to sponge bath and go to work with dirty hair. Gross.
4) My husband emails me on Thursday and asked me if I "unfriended" his mom from Facebook? What in the f? Are you serious? Dear lord, no, I didn't unfriend my mother in law. Even though she annoys the shit out of me, I did not unfriend her. I did make it so that she cannot see updates on my wall, but I didn't unfriend her. Seriously, her and my FIL came to our house to help my husband out and visit with the baby and she's worried that I unfriended her from Facebook? She needs a job or something....she has way too much time on her hands. So needless to say, crazy MIL once again is able to pry into my life.
5) I sucked on my diet!!!!! Out of everything else, this is what pisses me off the most. I mean, for the most part I did "okay". But what I was worried about came true. I drank my shakes for breakfast, but I had Subway for lunch twice and at dinner, I did try to order something chicken and "semi" healthy. But that is easier said than done. I asked our waiter one night if the chicken had skin on it. He said yes, so I was going to order something else, but they didn't have any other chicken dishes, so I resigned myself to picking the skin off. My dinner arrive and there was no skin! Of course I know it's my fault that I can't communicate better. I'm in their country crying out loud. I wish I knew spanish!
I did drink beer a couple of times and I had wine one night. I didn't exercise at all! I was going to bring my exercise videos but I didn't. So then my plan was to go to the hotel gym, but I didn't. We worked until 7 or 8 every night and then we had to try and get dinner after that. So basically it was a bust.
I stopped at MWLC on my way home Friday after my plane landed and I weighed 206. So basically, I had gained 1.8 pounds on my trip. I was a little swollen, so I think some of that was water weight.
I went back today for my weigh in and I am back to 204.2 - this is the same weight I was at on 2/12. So in 9 days, I have not lost a since pound. Boo! :( I did get measured today though and since January 18th, I have lost 9.25 inches. I don't remember exactly the numbers, but I l think I lost like 4 1/2 inches off my bust, 3.75 off my waist and 1 inch of my hips.
I haven't worked out in over two weeks, so tonight as soon as I got home from my weigh in, I did my JM Shred It DVD. It felt good! I am determined to get to goal #4 - 25 pounds lost - by this Thursday! I only have .6 pounds to go, there is no reason I can't do it if I commit!!!!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
This week will be challenging
This week I have to travel for work. I'm going to Costa Rica, which sounds pretty cool, right? Well, to be honest, I don't really get to do any sightseeing. I fly in on Monday, work work, work, work, and then fly out again on Friday. Our hotel has a shuttle that drops us off at work in the morning and picks us up, so I don't even rent a car. Not that I mind that because driving there is CRAZY. Seriously, I have witnessed so many accidents when I've been there. There are a ton of motorcyclists and they weave in and out of traffic and most of the accidents I see involve a motorcyle and a car. Usually, the car has won. The other thing about driving there is that people steal the manhole covers out of the street so you can be driving along and all of a suddent there is this big gaping hole. I've never actually gotten caught in one, but you can usually tell when one is coming p becuase the drivers in front of you swerve really fast, so other drivers will just usually do what the car in front of them does.
I am reallly worried about my diet when I am down there. Not so much about breakfast and dinner because I am bringing my shakes, but mainly about dinner. And drinks. I am going down with a few people from work, so there is always dinner out somewhere and wine (my nemesis LOL). The thing is, most of the restaurants serve really rich food covered in sauces or some kind of something melted on it. Most of the wait staff speaks english...to an extent. So you're good as long as you don't deviate from the menu. Then it's kind of like you order at your own risk.
Oh well, I hope I'm worrying for nothing...I'm sure I'll be fine. I just want to make sure I don't blow my diet. So there will be no weigh ins for me next week, but my hotel has wireless, so I will probably post an update.
I am reallly worried about my diet when I am down there. Not so much about breakfast and dinner because I am bringing my shakes, but mainly about dinner. And drinks. I am going down with a few people from work, so there is always dinner out somewhere and wine (my nemesis LOL). The thing is, most of the restaurants serve really rich food covered in sauces or some kind of something melted on it. Most of the wait staff speaks english...to an extent. So you're good as long as you don't deviate from the menu. Then it's kind of like you order at your own risk.
Oh well, I hope I'm worrying for nothing...I'm sure I'll be fine. I just want to make sure I don't blow my diet. So there will be no weigh ins for me next week, but my hotel has wireless, so I will probably post an update.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Fourth goal almost met and still "obese"!
Today I weighed in and I lost 2.2 pounds since Tuesday! That makes my weight 204.2 today! My fourth goal is to get to 25 lbs lost. When I started in December, I weighed in at 228.6, so that means I ony have about .6 lb's to go. That's just a little over 1/2 pound....a healthy poop some might say HAHA. I had hoped to hit that goal by Thursday, Feb. 10th, so I'm a little off on meeting it, but I'm pretty sure I'll hit it next week.
I know that I'm not always going to have great weigh ins, but I sure do love it when I get on the scale and see my numbers getting lower. It makes me feel like the hard work I'm putting in is working. I've never gone this long on a diet before. EVER. But, then again, I've never lost this much weight before either. And I like it!
We are going on vacation in April and I want to be able to wear a bathing suit and not look disgusting. I'm still very embarrassed of my body. I'm still considered "obese". When I first started my diet, I was "severely obese". God, what a disgusting term. They might as well call it "severely disgusting" because anyone who gets labelled any type of obese really gets a blow to their self-esteem. I mean, seriously, it's not enough to call someone fat, or even very fat. They have to put these terms like obese and severely disgustingly grossly obese out there (okay, I know it's not really called that, but that's how I feel when I hear or see that word written about me).
I was just looking at my weight chart and realized I've lost 10.67% of my body weight. My BMI has gone from 34.71 to 31.05. I won't be out of the "obese" category until I hit about 196. Then I'm just fat, or "overweight" until I hit 170 pounds.
Well now I feel like sh!t. Thanks Dr. Google. LOL. Nah, I'm just kidding, google didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. It's not like I'm mortified to find out that the internet thinks I'm fat. Um, hello, I think I'm fat! That's why I'm on a freaking diet!
I was talking with some of my friends on FB last night and we are all dieting. I made the comment that I wouldn't be offended if someone callled me fat, because I AM Fat! My response would be NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Now go solve your next mystery!
Someone at work pulled me aside the other day and whispered to me, "are you losing weight?". I was like, I'm trying. She goes, "well you can tell." So of course I said thanks. But she didn't say, "WOW, you look GREAT!" or anything fantastic or complimentary like that. She just told me that she could tell. Tell what, I'm not sure. Maybe she can tell I'm not as fat as I used to be. Or maybe she can tell that my ass is four inches smaller than it used to be (according to my last measurement check last month). Or maybe she can tell that you can't see my panty lines because my pants are too tight anymore! It's anyone's guess. She didn't tell me how she can tell. She just said that she could tell.
I kid. She's a very nice lady who happens to be very very thin and has probably never had a weight problem in her life. She was being nice and I appreciate that she took the time to say something to me.
So, since I am talking about work stories, here's another funny one to the exact opposite extreme. Last summer (8 months post-partum) someone actually asked me if I was pregnant again! I was like, "what the F? Hell no, I'm not pregnant." They were so embarassed but seriously I did not care. I'm glad they were embarassed. What an idiot. Rule #1: DO NOT ASK A FAT PERSON IF SHE IS PREGNANT! I had a baby 8 months ago and, yep, I'm fat. But, seriously, d'ya think I'm pregnant, dumb ass?!
Okay, I just set my fifth goal - to be at 200 pounds by 2/25/2011; that's 13 days away. According to Weight Tracker, this is going to be "very difficult". Um, no kidding! Do these computer programs think I'm a flaming idiot? Of course it's difficult. It's difficult to drive by the bagel shop and not stop to get a bagel and a yummy coffee drink. It's difficult not to eat a bunch of chocolate because it's valentines day. It's difficult not to drink my damn wine every night! So yeah, of course I know it's going to be difficult. I'm not doing this because it's easy. I'm doing it because I don't want to be fat anymore.
And you know what? I actually don't care if I don't exactly hit my goal on the target date. But I like having goals and I like pushing myself to meet those goals. So, if I wanted it to be "easy", I could have put my next goal to be at 200 by March 25th, but I'm not doing easy this time. Easy for me is kicking back with some wine and maybe snacking on some pita chips and hummus not paying any attention to how many calories I'm putting in my body. I've done easy for way too long.
I know that I'm not always going to have great weigh ins, but I sure do love it when I get on the scale and see my numbers getting lower. It makes me feel like the hard work I'm putting in is working. I've never gone this long on a diet before. EVER. But, then again, I've never lost this much weight before either. And I like it!
We are going on vacation in April and I want to be able to wear a bathing suit and not look disgusting. I'm still very embarrassed of my body. I'm still considered "obese". When I first started my diet, I was "severely obese". God, what a disgusting term. They might as well call it "severely disgusting" because anyone who gets labelled any type of obese really gets a blow to their self-esteem. I mean, seriously, it's not enough to call someone fat, or even very fat. They have to put these terms like obese and severely disgustingly grossly obese out there (okay, I know it's not really called that, but that's how I feel when I hear or see that word written about me).
I was just looking at my weight chart and realized I've lost 10.67% of my body weight. My BMI has gone from 34.71 to 31.05. I won't be out of the "obese" category until I hit about 196. Then I'm just fat, or "overweight" until I hit 170 pounds.
Well now I feel like sh!t. Thanks Dr. Google. LOL. Nah, I'm just kidding, google didn't tell me anything I didn't already know. It's not like I'm mortified to find out that the internet thinks I'm fat. Um, hello, I think I'm fat! That's why I'm on a freaking diet!
I was talking with some of my friends on FB last night and we are all dieting. I made the comment that I wouldn't be offended if someone callled me fat, because I AM Fat! My response would be NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Now go solve your next mystery!
Someone at work pulled me aside the other day and whispered to me, "are you losing weight?". I was like, I'm trying. She goes, "well you can tell." So of course I said thanks. But she didn't say, "WOW, you look GREAT!" or anything fantastic or complimentary like that. She just told me that she could tell. Tell what, I'm not sure. Maybe she can tell I'm not as fat as I used to be. Or maybe she can tell that my ass is four inches smaller than it used to be (according to my last measurement check last month). Or maybe she can tell that you can't see my panty lines because my pants are too tight anymore! It's anyone's guess. She didn't tell me how she can tell. She just said that she could tell.
I kid. She's a very nice lady who happens to be very very thin and has probably never had a weight problem in her life. She was being nice and I appreciate that she took the time to say something to me.
So, since I am talking about work stories, here's another funny one to the exact opposite extreme. Last summer (8 months post-partum) someone actually asked me if I was pregnant again! I was like, "what the F? Hell no, I'm not pregnant." They were so embarassed but seriously I did not care. I'm glad they were embarassed. What an idiot. Rule #1: DO NOT ASK A FAT PERSON IF SHE IS PREGNANT! I had a baby 8 months ago and, yep, I'm fat. But, seriously, d'ya think I'm pregnant, dumb ass?!
Okay, I just set my fifth goal - to be at 200 pounds by 2/25/2011; that's 13 days away. According to Weight Tracker, this is going to be "very difficult". Um, no kidding! Do these computer programs think I'm a flaming idiot? Of course it's difficult. It's difficult to drive by the bagel shop and not stop to get a bagel and a yummy coffee drink. It's difficult not to eat a bunch of chocolate because it's valentines day. It's difficult not to drink my damn wine every night! So yeah, of course I know it's going to be difficult. I'm not doing this because it's easy. I'm doing it because I don't want to be fat anymore.
And you know what? I actually don't care if I don't exactly hit my goal on the target date. But I like having goals and I like pushing myself to meet those goals. So, if I wanted it to be "easy", I could have put my next goal to be at 200 by March 25th, but I'm not doing easy this time. Easy for me is kicking back with some wine and maybe snacking on some pita chips and hummus not paying any attention to how many calories I'm putting in my body. I've done easy for way too long.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Drum Roll.....weigh in and something funny :P
While I can't take back the Jimmy John's, chicken sandwich and fries, pizza or wine, I HAVE taken back the 1.2 pounds I had gained! WHOO HOO! Yep, I'm actually down 1.4 pounds from Saturday's weigh in. I'm currently 206.4. Which, after last week, I'll take it.
I'm still kind of p.o'd with myself that I let my pie hole inhale all that bad food, but hey, what can you do? Sometimes a girl needs her wine. Although to be honest with you, I really don't like pizza that much, so I should have definitely skipped the pizza.
Okay, now for something funny. I went to a baby shower for a girl I work with last year. It was last April, so I was four months post-partum. Well, the girl I work with said to me yesterday that her friend had put together a scrapbook of her baby shower and, "oh my god Fancy, you are seriously half the person that you used to be". She's like, "if you saw those pictures, you'd be so proud of yourself and how far you've come. I even showed my husband and he can't believe that is you".
So while I appreciate the "kind of" compliment, I'm also definitely not half the person I used to be. When I went for my 8 week check up, I weighed 210. That's only 3 pounds more than I weigh right now. I was breastfeeding and, so, probably the only thing that I have half of are my boobs. LOL. It wasn't until I stopped pumping in July that I BAM! put on 15 pounds almost right away and shot up into the 220's.
I think it's funny that she said that I'm half the person I was before, because the reality of it is that I probably look just as fat now as I did then. But, since she sees me every day, she doesn't see the "real' me as being as fat as the "picture" me. Instead of being insulted, I'm choosing to find it amusing.
So, the moral of my funny story is that I'm still fat and not half the person I used to be....YET! But I know that My Skinny Bitch is hiding in here somewhere!!!
I'm still kind of p.o'd with myself that I let my pie hole inhale all that bad food, but hey, what can you do? Sometimes a girl needs her wine. Although to be honest with you, I really don't like pizza that much, so I should have definitely skipped the pizza.
Okay, now for something funny. I went to a baby shower for a girl I work with last year. It was last April, so I was four months post-partum. Well, the girl I work with said to me yesterday that her friend had put together a scrapbook of her baby shower and, "oh my god Fancy, you are seriously half the person that you used to be". She's like, "if you saw those pictures, you'd be so proud of yourself and how far you've come. I even showed my husband and he can't believe that is you".
So while I appreciate the "kind of" compliment, I'm also definitely not half the person I used to be. When I went for my 8 week check up, I weighed 210. That's only 3 pounds more than I weigh right now. I was breastfeeding and, so, probably the only thing that I have half of are my boobs. LOL. It wasn't until I stopped pumping in July that I BAM! put on 15 pounds almost right away and shot up into the 220's.
I think it's funny that she said that I'm half the person I was before, because the reality of it is that I probably look just as fat now as I did then. But, since she sees me every day, she doesn't see the "real' me as being as fat as the "picture" me. Instead of being insulted, I'm choosing to find it amusing.
So, the moral of my funny story is that I'm still fat and not half the person I used to be....YET! But I know that My Skinny Bitch is hiding in here somewhere!!!
AHA Moments and Bitchy MIL's...
For fatties like me that are trying to lose weight, there is usually a trigger or "event" that starts the weight loss. For me, the event was I finally saw myself as other people were seeing me when I was on vacation with my husband's family in France. I knew I had gained quite a bit of weight, but I guess I was just blocking it out until then.
So, there I was in France with my husband's family (his parents, brothers and their wives), my mother-in-law is from France, so her sister, brother and parents were there as well. And EVERYONE is skinny (except for my father-in-law, who has some chub).
So, what I noticed was that everyone was treating me different, like not very nice, to me. Like my father-in-law (who's also fat, BTW) kept on taking pictures of of my SIL's and he would make comments like "beautiful", or "great picture", well after a while, I started to notice that he never said that when I was in the picture. I was kind of thinking well f-you, old man. But really, it hurt my feelings. My MIL, who is a snooty wench anyway was just a bitch to me the whole time. Just totally rude.
When we were in Paris, my foot was hurting really bad (bad arch, which I'm sure in part was caused by my weight). Anyway, so I am struggling to keep up with everyone and I'm walking with my fat FIL (the fatties were bringing up the caboose LOL) and all of a sudden I step wrong on a crack in the sidewalk and I went DOWN. I totally sprained my ankle, skinned my hands up and almost broke my camera. Well, everyone was seriously about three blocks ahead and there was noone to help me and we were MILES from our hotel. One of my SIL's is a nurse, so she saw me and came running back and helped me up. I happened to have tape that I had been using to tape my arch so she quickly wrapped my ankle.
So there I am in Paris, fat, sweaty, sprained ankle, and crying. Let me say, it was not a pretty picture. Bitchy MIL comes back and tells me that I have to walk to the taxi stand because they don't just stop on the side of the road there. I am not kidding when I say that I had to walk over a mile to get to a taxi stand.
Oh my gosh, I'm getting pissed again just thinking about it! She is such a bitch! She was irritated because they wanted to go see Notre Dame and I was slowing them down. She actually almost had my husband convinced to throw me in a cab with my sprained ankle and send me back to the hotel by myself, WITH the baby! I finally was like, "um husband, you are coming with me and at least getting me back to the hotel". Sorry, but I need you!
Okay, where was I going with this story? Oh yeah, I guess you could say that was my AHA moment. I had been successful up until that point to not a) get pictures taken, b) not be around bitchy judgemental people, and c) kid myself into thinking that I wasn't "that" fat.
Well, lemme tell you a little secret. You want a reality check - let someone else take pictures of you. Seriously, France was all about taking pictures and, while I tried to not be in too many of them, it couldn't be avoided at all time. So when I got home, I went through my pictures and all I kept on saying was, "wow, I cannot believe how big I am". I mean, I'm not a total idiot - I'm smart enough to realize that I can't blame every fat picture on bad lighting or a bad pose. The only thing I can blame my fat pictures on is being fat.
So, yeah, that was my AHA! moment. Even then, it still took me three months after that to commit to changing and losing weight.
So, in case you were wondering what motivates me? It's losing my fat ass so I can be skinnier than my mother-in-law. HAHA! I know that's bitchy, but I want.it.so.bad. I know I should be motivated by getting healthy and all that jazz, and I am, kind of. But really, I mostly motivated by getting skinnier than her.
She saw that I posted on FB when I first started my diet that I had lost 6 pounds and when we went to go see them over New Year's, she was like, "sooo, you're on a diet, eh?" I was like yeah. Then she asked me what kind of diet and I told her about my shakes and she was her usual bitchy self and was like, "Bob (fat FIL) used to do those when he was trying to lose weight. I could never do that." I was like, "well, it works for me so I'm going for it".
A few hours later my skinny SIL comes over and we're just catching up and bitchy MIL announces, "Fancy's on a diet". I was like, "um, that's not news" and just rolled my eyes. So now, every time she calls, she's always prying to find out how my diet is doing and I'm just like, "it's going good". She's DYING to know how much I've lost and I'm not giving her anything! HAHAHA, I know it's mean, but I think it's funny that she wants to know so bad. And I'm FOR SURE not ever going to tell her how much weight I've lost. Because she's the sneaky type of person who will take that information and then later ask me how much I currently weigh so that she can add up the numbers and find out how much I USED to weigh. Too bad lady! It's none of your damn business!
Oh, and I blocked her on FB so she can't see my posts :-P
So, there I was in France with my husband's family (his parents, brothers and their wives), my mother-in-law is from France, so her sister, brother and parents were there as well. And EVERYONE is skinny (except for my father-in-law, who has some chub).
So, what I noticed was that everyone was treating me different, like not very nice, to me. Like my father-in-law (who's also fat, BTW) kept on taking pictures of of my SIL's and he would make comments like "beautiful", or "great picture", well after a while, I started to notice that he never said that when I was in the picture. I was kind of thinking well f-you, old man. But really, it hurt my feelings. My MIL, who is a snooty wench anyway was just a bitch to me the whole time. Just totally rude.
When we were in Paris, my foot was hurting really bad (bad arch, which I'm sure in part was caused by my weight). Anyway, so I am struggling to keep up with everyone and I'm walking with my fat FIL (the fatties were bringing up the caboose LOL) and all of a sudden I step wrong on a crack in the sidewalk and I went DOWN. I totally sprained my ankle, skinned my hands up and almost broke my camera. Well, everyone was seriously about three blocks ahead and there was noone to help me and we were MILES from our hotel. One of my SIL's is a nurse, so she saw me and came running back and helped me up. I happened to have tape that I had been using to tape my arch so she quickly wrapped my ankle.
So there I am in Paris, fat, sweaty, sprained ankle, and crying. Let me say, it was not a pretty picture. Bitchy MIL comes back and tells me that I have to walk to the taxi stand because they don't just stop on the side of the road there. I am not kidding when I say that I had to walk over a mile to get to a taxi stand.
Oh my gosh, I'm getting pissed again just thinking about it! She is such a bitch! She was irritated because they wanted to go see Notre Dame and I was slowing them down. She actually almost had my husband convinced to throw me in a cab with my sprained ankle and send me back to the hotel by myself, WITH the baby! I finally was like, "um husband, you are coming with me and at least getting me back to the hotel". Sorry, but I need you!
Okay, where was I going with this story? Oh yeah, I guess you could say that was my AHA moment. I had been successful up until that point to not a) get pictures taken, b) not be around bitchy judgemental people, and c) kid myself into thinking that I wasn't "that" fat.
Well, lemme tell you a little secret. You want a reality check - let someone else take pictures of you. Seriously, France was all about taking pictures and, while I tried to not be in too many of them, it couldn't be avoided at all time. So when I got home, I went through my pictures and all I kept on saying was, "wow, I cannot believe how big I am". I mean, I'm not a total idiot - I'm smart enough to realize that I can't blame every fat picture on bad lighting or a bad pose. The only thing I can blame my fat pictures on is being fat.
So, yeah, that was my AHA! moment. Even then, it still took me three months after that to commit to changing and losing weight.
So, in case you were wondering what motivates me? It's losing my fat ass so I can be skinnier than my mother-in-law. HAHA! I know that's bitchy, but I want.it.so.bad. I know I should be motivated by getting healthy and all that jazz, and I am, kind of. But really, I mostly motivated by getting skinnier than her.
She saw that I posted on FB when I first started my diet that I had lost 6 pounds and when we went to go see them over New Year's, she was like, "sooo, you're on a diet, eh?" I was like yeah. Then she asked me what kind of diet and I told her about my shakes and she was her usual bitchy self and was like, "Bob (fat FIL) used to do those when he was trying to lose weight. I could never do that." I was like, "well, it works for me so I'm going for it".
A few hours later my skinny SIL comes over and we're just catching up and bitchy MIL announces, "Fancy's on a diet". I was like, "um, that's not news" and just rolled my eyes. So now, every time she calls, she's always prying to find out how my diet is doing and I'm just like, "it's going good". She's DYING to know how much I've lost and I'm not giving her anything! HAHAHA, I know it's mean, but I think it's funny that she wants to know so bad. And I'm FOR SURE not ever going to tell her how much weight I've lost. Because she's the sneaky type of person who will take that information and then later ask me how much I currently weigh so that she can add up the numbers and find out how much I USED to weigh. Too bad lady! It's none of your damn business!
Oh, and I blocked her on FB so she can't see my posts :-P
Monday, February 7, 2011
It's A New Week....and boy do I need it!
Well, last week was full of some high's and low's.
For the high's, of course, the greatest high was that I had such a great weigh in on Tuesday. Actually, now that I think about it, that was the only high. It was actually a pretty crappy week.
For the low's, well to immediately follow up my awesome weigh in on Tuesday, I ended up getting stuck in a meeting for like three hours on Thursday and they served lunch (Jimmy John's). Well, I caved and ate almost 3/4 of a sandwich and 1/2 of a cookie. Which, of course, I should not be eating. It was a ham sandwich, so not only was it full of sodium and carbs and FAT!, but it's an absolute waste of precious calories.
So, that was Thursday. Diet = FAIL!
Friday, we had a candidate in from out of town and the VP who was supposed to take him to lunch bailed on me, so I got stuck taking the guy to lunch with another VP. We go to this fancy restaurant and of course, I can't drink my shake and I'm STARVING, so I order a chicken sandwich. I had every intention of just eating the chicken, but it didn't work out that way and I ate the chicken and the fries.
But that's not the end of it.
Friday night, I eat a whole piece of pizza. Not a little piece either, one of those pizza delivery pieces. It was big. And, I indulged in my biggest sin....Cabernet. I drank a lot of it. There's not denying it. Obviously, if I lie on here, I'm just lying to myself.
So, basically, Friday diet = FAIL ROUND TWO!!!!!
I weighed in on Saturday. I wasn't going to, considering how horrible I had done for the previous two days, but I want to keep myself honest. And guess what? 207.8! So that means that in four days I gained 1.2 pounds. Damn it! But really, what did I expect?
So, obviously, I need to do something about this. Since Saturday, I've been eating clean and following my diet. I do not plan on letting that happen again!
Tomorrow is my next weigh in and I'm hoping for a better number on the scale. Although, I am a little worried because I started my . today, so of course that means bloating, water retention, etc. But at least this time I'll know if there is a gain, that it's not because I ate like crap.
For the high's, of course, the greatest high was that I had such a great weigh in on Tuesday. Actually, now that I think about it, that was the only high. It was actually a pretty crappy week.
For the low's, well to immediately follow up my awesome weigh in on Tuesday, I ended up getting stuck in a meeting for like three hours on Thursday and they served lunch (Jimmy John's). Well, I caved and ate almost 3/4 of a sandwich and 1/2 of a cookie. Which, of course, I should not be eating. It was a ham sandwich, so not only was it full of sodium and carbs and FAT!, but it's an absolute waste of precious calories.
Nutrition Facts
Serving Size: 298 grams
Amount per Serving
- Calories 684 Calories from Fat 336
% Daily Value *
- Total Fat 37.35g 57% (are you f'ing kidding me?)
- Saturated Fat 9.73g 49%
- Cholesterol 70.37mg 23%
- Sodium 1658.78mg 69% (this is almost two days worth of sodium!)
- Total Carbohydrate 55.11g 18% (this is about three days worth of carbs)
- Dietary Fiber 0.88g 4%
- Protein 30.39g 61%
Est. Percent of Calories from:
Fat 49.1% Carbs 32.2%
Protein 17.8%
So, that was Thursday. Diet = FAIL!
Friday, we had a candidate in from out of town and the VP who was supposed to take him to lunch bailed on me, so I got stuck taking the guy to lunch with another VP. We go to this fancy restaurant and of course, I can't drink my shake and I'm STARVING, so I order a chicken sandwich. I had every intention of just eating the chicken, but it didn't work out that way and I ate the chicken and the fries.
But that's not the end of it.
Friday night, I eat a whole piece of pizza. Not a little piece either, one of those pizza delivery pieces. It was big. And, I indulged in my biggest sin....Cabernet. I drank a lot of it. There's not denying it. Obviously, if I lie on here, I'm just lying to myself.
So, basically, Friday diet = FAIL ROUND TWO!!!!!
I weighed in on Saturday. I wasn't going to, considering how horrible I had done for the previous two days, but I want to keep myself honest. And guess what? 207.8! So that means that in four days I gained 1.2 pounds. Damn it! But really, what did I expect?
So, obviously, I need to do something about this. Since Saturday, I've been eating clean and following my diet. I do not plan on letting that happen again!
Tomorrow is my next weigh in and I'm hoping for a better number on the scale. Although, I am a little worried because I started my . today, so of course that means bloating, water retention, etc. But at least this time I'll know if there is a gain, that it's not because I ate like crap.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Goal #3 - Check!
My third goal was to lose 20 pounds. After my weigh in today, my total weightloss is 22 pounds, which means I've officially met my third goal! I'm a teenybit disappointed that I didn't make hit my goal on my goal date of January 28th, but it's all good. The point is - I did it!
And another thing - my fourth goal was going to be 10% of my body weight, but with my weigh in today, I'm pretty much there. I started at 228.6, so 10% of that is 22.8. I think I'll just have to set a new goal 4.
Next goal is 25 pounds total lost (203.6)! And I hope to do this by February 9.
And another thing - my fourth goal was going to be 10% of my body weight, but with my weigh in today, I'm pretty much there. I started at 228.6, so 10% of that is 22.8. I think I'll just have to set a new goal 4.
Next goal is 25 pounds total lost (203.6)! And I hope to do this by February 9.
Okay, maybe HATE is a strong word...
I said the other day that I hate the scale. Obviously, it's difficult to hate an inanimate object. So, if I have to retract that statement, I will say that at the time that previous post, I was very, very unhappy with the number that said scale put up on it's little digital display.
Today's a new day....and, consequently, a new weigh in :). Maybe you can tell from the tone of my writing that I've rethought my feelings for the scale because she has redeemed herself. If you are thinking this, you are absolutely, 100% RIGHT! I LOVE the scale today. Like love it so much I should run off and marry it!
Drumroll please, today's weigh in was 206.6! That's right - down 5.8 lbs from last Thursday when I had that shitastic weigh in and down a total of 22.2 pounds since Dec. 18.
La la la, I'm so happy. I'm also SO GLAD I didn't give up and let the fat girl win. I am now refocused, refreshed, and recommitted. I feel great! And, mark my words, I am on my weigh to Finding My Skinny!!!
Today's a new day....and, consequently, a new weigh in :). Maybe you can tell from the tone of my writing that I've rethought my feelings for the scale because she has redeemed herself. If you are thinking this, you are absolutely, 100% RIGHT! I LOVE the scale today. Like love it so much I should run off and marry it!
Drumroll please, today's weigh in was 206.6! That's right - down 5.8 lbs from last Thursday when I had that shitastic weigh in and down a total of 22.2 pounds since Dec. 18.
La la la, I'm so happy. I'm also SO GLAD I didn't give up and let the fat girl win. I am now refocused, refreshed, and recommitted. I feel great! And, mark my words, I am on my weigh to Finding My Skinny!!!
Monday, January 31, 2011
I'm still here
I have not had anything to update really. I'm still here and taking one day at a time on my diet. I haven't weighed in since last Thursday, mainly because I just haven't had a chance. I didn't get out of work on time on Friday to get there and on Saturday, I was home with the baby and couldn't get there before they closed.
Well, okay, if I'm honest with yself, that's only half the reason I didn't weigh in. I really didn't have much time, but I guess I could have tried harder to weigh in on Saturday. I didn't because I want to have a few days to get myself back on track so I can see a loss again. I didn't want to see another bad number on the scale.
I keep reminding myself why I am doing this: I don't want to be fat anymore. So, really, it's all about me. If I cheat, I'm just cheating myself.
Tomorrow is my next weigh in, so I'm hoping and praying that the scale is good to me!
Well, okay, if I'm honest with yself, that's only half the reason I didn't weigh in. I really didn't have much time, but I guess I could have tried harder to weigh in on Saturday. I didn't because I want to have a few days to get myself back on track so I can see a loss again. I didn't want to see another bad number on the scale.
I keep reminding myself why I am doing this: I don't want to be fat anymore. So, really, it's all about me. If I cheat, I'm just cheating myself.
Tomorrow is my next weigh in, so I'm hoping and praying that the scale is good to me!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Refocus Fatty McFatty, Refocus
Breathe in, breathe out. Yes, I'm still pissed and hate the scale right now. But no, I'm not about to throw all the hard work I've put into my weight loss so far. So what am I going to do about it? Refocus.
Why am I doing this? Because I don't want to be fat anymore.
So, if I give up and have a whopper and fries because I have a bad weigh in, I'll always be fat. (Although I have to admit that whoppers haven't been my problem - for me, it was the wine.)
So, I didn't have have whoppers or wine. I made sure that I got all my food in and then after dinner, I decided to do my 30DS and Shred It DVD's.
I have to admit that I feel a little bit better. I'm still pissed at the scale though.
Why am I doing this? Because I don't want to be fat anymore.
So, if I give up and have a whopper and fries because I have a bad weigh in, I'll always be fat. (Although I have to admit that whoppers haven't been my problem - for me, it was the wine.)
So, I didn't have have whoppers or wine. I made sure that I got all my food in and then after dinner, I decided to do my 30DS and Shred It DVD's.
I have to admit that I feel a little bit better. I'm still pissed at the scale though.
I hate you scale!
Well sadly, I am reporting more bad news today. I went for my weigh in and I weighed 212.4. What the fluck? I have not cheated one bit on my diet. I drink the prescribed shakes, eat my one meal a day, have not complained and yet, I gain weight. I don't know how this happened. The lady that was working said that I might not be getting enough calories in because there have been a few times when I have not eaten all of the food. Like, last night I didn't even get home until 8:30 pm so I just warmed up some soup (not on the diet), but it was lowfat and I'm SURE it was better than stopping at McDonald's.....or so I thought. I bet if I would have had the McDonald's the scale would still have been the same today.
So after this setback I am down to only 16.4 pounds lost. I'm definitely in the hole this week and I'm very disappointed. I need to make sure I'm only eating the foods on my plan and not deviating.
I guess I'll work out tonight and hope and pray that Saturday brings better news.
So after this setback I am down to only 16.4 pounds lost. I'm definitely in the hole this week and I'm very disappointed. I need to make sure I'm only eating the foods on my plan and not deviating.
I guess I'll work out tonight and hope and pray that Saturday brings better news.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
What the heck?!
Yesterday I went for my weigh in and I gained .6 pounds! Freaking scale! I don't know how this happened. I've been so good. I've been working out. I haven't been eating crap. So how did this happen?
Could it possibly be because I weighed in at the end of the day? *sigh* I'm just so frustrated because there is no reason for the scale to not be good to me. So, to sum it up, if I count that damn .6 gain, I've lost a total of 17.6 pounds. Tomorrow I weigh in again, and the scale WILL go down - it has to.
Here are my weekly stats so far. I am on week 6 right now:
So, putting things in perspective, I've guess done well so far, and I shouldn't let one bad weigh in get me down. I'm just bummed that I'm starting out week 6 with a -6 defiicit. I was kind of hoping to reach my 3rd goal of 20 pounds lost by this Thursday, but now my plan is in jeopardy because instead of having to lose 1.8 pounds to get to that goal, I know have to lose 2.4.
So, even though I had a crappy weigh in yesterday, I didn't drown my sorrows in oreo cookies. Nope, I just cussed the scale out, refocused, and got more determined than ever.
I also got my Lipo shot yesterday (the B12 cocktail I talked about before). I wasn't "technically" supposed to get it until Thursday, but the girl that was working is pregnant and I think she had a little bit of preggo brain going on and said that it was time to get my shot, so, being the opportunist that I am, I didn't stop her. I wanted to change my shot days anyway and I figured that my mood needed a boost after that damn weigh in LOL.
Today's work out consisted of doing Level 1 of the 30 Day Shred. I was tempted to do my Shred It DVD again too, but I decided not to because after I did both on Sunday, my body has hurt in places I had forgotten existed and I want to see how my body feels afer I do just the 30 DS. I wasn't wimping out though because I love the burn after a good work out. I love it when I tighten my butt cheeks and feel my muscles. Reminds me that there really is muscle there and not just fat HAHAHA.
Could it possibly be because I weighed in at the end of the day? *sigh* I'm just so frustrated because there is no reason for the scale to not be good to me. So, to sum it up, if I count that damn .6 gain, I've lost a total of 17.6 pounds. Tomorrow I weigh in again, and the scale WILL go down - it has to.
Here are my weekly stats so far. I am on week 6 right now:
| Week # | lb. lost this week |
| 1 | 3 |
| 2 | 3 |
| 3 | 3.8 |
| 4 | 5.2 |
| 5 | 3.2 |
So, putting things in perspective, I've guess done well so far, and I shouldn't let one bad weigh in get me down. I'm just bummed that I'm starting out week 6 with a -6 defiicit. I was kind of hoping to reach my 3rd goal of 20 pounds lost by this Thursday, but now my plan is in jeopardy because instead of having to lose 1.8 pounds to get to that goal, I know have to lose 2.4.
So, even though I had a crappy weigh in yesterday, I didn't drown my sorrows in oreo cookies. Nope, I just cussed the scale out, refocused, and got more determined than ever.
I also got my Lipo shot yesterday (the B12 cocktail I talked about before). I wasn't "technically" supposed to get it until Thursday, but the girl that was working is pregnant and I think she had a little bit of preggo brain going on and said that it was time to get my shot, so, being the opportunist that I am, I didn't stop her. I wanted to change my shot days anyway and I figured that my mood needed a boost after that damn weigh in LOL.
Today's work out consisted of doing Level 1 of the 30 Day Shred. I was tempted to do my Shred It DVD again too, but I decided not to because after I did both on Sunday, my body has hurt in places I had forgotten existed and I want to see how my body feels afer I do just the 30 DS. I wasn't wimping out though because I love the burn after a good work out. I love it when I tighten my butt cheeks and feel my muscles. Reminds me that there really is muscle there and not just fat HAHAHA.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
I Feel Goooooooooooooooooooood!
Well, I didn't work out yesterday like I planned. Not that I was doing anything else, I just wasn't doing that, I guess.
So today I redeemed myself and did both the 30 Day Shred (Level 1) - OHMYGOD it's HARD! and the Shred It (Level 1) DVD's! Like I said, I feel goooooooood! I didn't intend to do both, but after Jillian Michaels kicking my @ss all the way through the 30 Day Shred DVD and saying, "push through it" and "don't give up", I guess I just felt inspired to get my @ss kicked by her some more by doing the Shred It workout.
I still think that the Shred It is my fave! I love weight/cardio combo workouts. I used to do Body Pump many years ago at the gym and love love loved it! When I moved, the new gym I went to had a different version of it and it just wasn't the same. Plus the instructor at my old gym was a guy and he seriously was a hard ass. I loved it. But now that I'm much fatter and much more out of shape, I'll take my small victories where I can get them....like the Jillian Michaels Shred It DVD. :P
Not to mention that I just love Jillian Michaels in general. I know that she's a celebrity, but it really feels like she has her heart in it and WANTS to help me get in shape. I believe her :). I saw her in person when I was in Paris, France...she was staying at the same hotel we were at. She's absolutely gorgeous in person and she's thistiny. I didn't recognize her at first and kept on saying to myself, "who was that?". Paula Abdul kept popping in my head for some reason, but it didn't seem right. Then, of course, after the opportunity had passed to tell her how much I love her, I realized that it was THE Jillian Michaels.
Haha, it's funny too because that was when I was at my fattest. I was holding my baby who was seven months at the time, he had a horribly stinky diaper and I was a hot mess, and here is this gorgeous celebrity standing in front of me. She turned around and gave me the biggest, warmest smile and I could tell she felt sorry for me. Probably a) because I was so fat and out of shape, I'm sure she was thinking....I could fix that, b) because I looked bad...we had just arrived after travelling for three hours in a van with TWO screaming kids and I may have pulled a few hairs out, and c) you could smell my sons smelly diaper from a block away...it was that bad!
So now, let's get back to reason two why I feel sooooooooooo gooooooooood! My clothes are starting to get loose on me! YAY! I love the feeling of loose clothes....it makes me feel good :) I like feeling my yoga pants swishing around on my legs a little bit and not having them be skin tight. I like that someone is maybe thinking, "her clothes don't fit" not because they are too tight, but because they are too loose! I LOVE IT!
So, yes, I feel GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
So today I redeemed myself and did both the 30 Day Shred (Level 1) - OHMYGOD it's HARD! and the Shred It (Level 1) DVD's! Like I said, I feel goooooooood! I didn't intend to do both, but after Jillian Michaels kicking my @ss all the way through the 30 Day Shred DVD and saying, "push through it" and "don't give up", I guess I just felt inspired to get my @ss kicked by her some more by doing the Shred It workout.
I still think that the Shred It is my fave! I love weight/cardio combo workouts. I used to do Body Pump many years ago at the gym and love love loved it! When I moved, the new gym I went to had a different version of it and it just wasn't the same. Plus the instructor at my old gym was a guy and he seriously was a hard ass. I loved it. But now that I'm much fatter and much more out of shape, I'll take my small victories where I can get them....like the Jillian Michaels Shred It DVD. :P
Not to mention that I just love Jillian Michaels in general. I know that she's a celebrity, but it really feels like she has her heart in it and WANTS to help me get in shape. I believe her :). I saw her in person when I was in Paris, France...she was staying at the same hotel we were at. She's absolutely gorgeous in person and she's thistiny. I didn't recognize her at first and kept on saying to myself, "who was that?". Paula Abdul kept popping in my head for some reason, but it didn't seem right. Then, of course, after the opportunity had passed to tell her how much I love her, I realized that it was THE Jillian Michaels.
Haha, it's funny too because that was when I was at my fattest. I was holding my baby who was seven months at the time, he had a horribly stinky diaper and I was a hot mess, and here is this gorgeous celebrity standing in front of me. She turned around and gave me the biggest, warmest smile and I could tell she felt sorry for me. Probably a) because I was so fat and out of shape, I'm sure she was thinking....I could fix that, b) because I looked bad...we had just arrived after travelling for three hours in a van with TWO screaming kids and I may have pulled a few hairs out, and c) you could smell my sons smelly diaper from a block away...it was that bad!
So now, let's get back to reason two why I feel sooooooooooo gooooooooood! My clothes are starting to get loose on me! YAY! I love the feeling of loose clothes....it makes me feel good :) I like feeling my yoga pants swishing around on my legs a little bit and not having them be skin tight. I like that someone is maybe thinking, "her clothes don't fit" not because they are too tight, but because they are too loose! I LOVE IT!
So, yes, I feel GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
oooohhhhhh I feel GOOD today!
Went for my weigh in today - 210.4 THANKYOUVERYMUCH! Wooohooo, that is now 18.2 pounds lost since December 18, 2010! That definitely help keep the motivation going to continue. I have to admit that I did have some wine last night too, so who knows what my number would have been if I hadn't drank that. Hmmmm, I definitely need to have more willpower and stay away from that stuff until I meet my goal weight.
That means that I met my second goal today - getting to 210! My first goal was to get to 215...
I am setting my third goal - and that is to get to 20 pounds lost. That's only 1.8 pounds I have to lose and I hope to do that by this Thursday, January 27th.
It's snowing pretty hard here today so my plan is to do my Jillian Michaels DVD. Maybe I'll try my new 30 Day Shred DVD. I sprained my ankle, so I'm a little leary of jumping around a lot on it. Oh well, I'll preview the video and if it looks doable, I'll take it on. If not, I'll stick with my Shred It Kettlebell DVD. I love that one anyway.
That means that I met my second goal today - getting to 210! My first goal was to get to 215...
I am setting my third goal - and that is to get to 20 pounds lost. That's only 1.8 pounds I have to lose and I hope to do that by this Thursday, January 27th.
It's snowing pretty hard here today so my plan is to do my Jillian Michaels DVD. Maybe I'll try my new 30 Day Shred DVD. I sprained my ankle, so I'm a little leary of jumping around a lot on it. Oh well, I'll preview the video and if it looks doable, I'll take it on. If not, I'll stick with my Shred It Kettlebell DVD. I love that one anyway.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Weighed in today
I weighed in today and it was the same as Tuesday....212.4! BOO!!! Well, I guess it's only been two days and I'm glad it wasn't more, but darn it, it's the first time I've weighed in and I haven't lost so I was really disappointed.
I have to admit though that I didn't follow my meal plan that great the last couple of days. I did do the shakes like I'm supposed to but last night for dinner I had some nachos that my husband had left over. And I also had an extra snack bar. So hopefully since the nachos were salty and I haven't been taking in that much sodium I'm just retaining a little water and will see better results when I weigh in on Saturday.
I also got my Lipo shot today (that's what they call them - it has B12, CoQ10, and some other stuff in it). I get those shots twice a week and I really think it a) helps with my mood and b) really does help me lose weight.
For a workout, I did the Jillian Michaels Shred-It DVD. It's only 28 minutes, but it's a good workout and I love it. I always get a really good sweat and feel like I worked my muscles, which they definitely need!
I have to admit though that I didn't follow my meal plan that great the last couple of days. I did do the shakes like I'm supposed to but last night for dinner I had some nachos that my husband had left over. And I also had an extra snack bar. So hopefully since the nachos were salty and I haven't been taking in that much sodium I'm just retaining a little water and will see better results when I weigh in on Saturday.
I also got my Lipo shot today (that's what they call them - it has B12, CoQ10, and some other stuff in it). I get those shots twice a week and I really think it a) helps with my mood and b) really does help me lose weight.
For a workout, I did the Jillian Michaels Shred-It DVD. It's only 28 minutes, but it's a good workout and I love it. I always get a really good sweat and feel like I worked my muscles, which they definitely need!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Progress Pictures
This is a picture taken about two weeks after I started my weight loss. It was taken 1/3/2011 and 7.2 pounds lost:
Here is four weeks and 16.2 pounds lost:
Here is four weeks and 16.2 pounds lost:
Pictures
Here's a picture of me before I got fat. This is what I want to look like again!
And here is a picture of me taken in September 2010. This is "the picture" that made me realize how fat I had gotten. I can honestly say that until I saw this picture, I didn't realize how big I really was.
And here is a picture of me taken in September 2010. This is "the picture" that made me realize how fat I had gotten. I can honestly say that until I saw this picture, I didn't realize how big I really was.
Okay, so let's talk about my starting weight
OH.MY.GOD. my starting weight was 228.6!!!!! That is the fattest I have ever been. My BMI was 34.76 - that's considered morbidly obese! Are you f'ing kidding me? How in the world did I let myself get this way? Well, I'll tell you how, in exactly the order that it happened:
- Drinking red wine every single night. Take my advice - DON'T DO THIS! Wine has so many calories in it and if you are not burning the calories off, they quickly add up.
- Eating too much food! My portion sizes were totally out of control and I was probably intaking at least 1000 more calories (between food and the wine) per day than I should have been.
- Eating the wrong kind of food. I was really good at getting "food amnesia" and "fogetting" what I had eaten throughout the day. I also started to just neglect the labels on food packages so I didn't have to see how much fat/carbs I was taking in.
Finding My Skinny Bitch!
Well, I'm getting started on this blog about a month in to my weight loss. My first day was December 18, 2010. I made the decision that it was TIME to lose weight and decided that I wanted to try Medical Weight Loss Clinic. I went that day. It wasn't cheap, let me tell you, but I decided to go for it because I needed some "skin in the game" to hold myself accountable.
My first weigh in was 228.6 pounds. Since day one I have lost 16.2 pounds as of yesterday. I am so excited! I feel very motivated and the "diet" itself has been pretty easy. I'm on the Jump Start program and drink 4 shakes a day and eat one meal. I'm supposed to eat pretty specific things for the meal, but I don't really follow that too close. I kind of feel like I'm restricting myself already by only eating one meal a day and if I put limits on what I can eat, then I'm more likely to fail. So basically, I'm just making sure that I use good portion control and don't overeat.
The shakes are actually pretty good. During the day at work, I mix the mocha shake wiith coffee and it tastes like a yummy coffee drink. I just sip on these all day at work and I never feel hungry. Each shake has 15 grams of protein!
I have been taking progress pictures so I will post those. I've only taken a few, but I'll probably update my pics every two weeks with full body pics so I can see my progress.
My first weigh in was 228.6 pounds. Since day one I have lost 16.2 pounds as of yesterday. I am so excited! I feel very motivated and the "diet" itself has been pretty easy. I'm on the Jump Start program and drink 4 shakes a day and eat one meal. I'm supposed to eat pretty specific things for the meal, but I don't really follow that too close. I kind of feel like I'm restricting myself already by only eating one meal a day and if I put limits on what I can eat, then I'm more likely to fail. So basically, I'm just making sure that I use good portion control and don't overeat.
The shakes are actually pretty good. During the day at work, I mix the mocha shake wiith coffee and it tastes like a yummy coffee drink. I just sip on these all day at work and I never feel hungry. Each shake has 15 grams of protein!
I have been taking progress pictures so I will post those. I've only taken a few, but I'll probably update my pics every two weeks with full body pics so I can see my progress.
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